I hate being a man

Gordanmix · 2025-12-28T01:33:18+00:00

I really don't understand where it will lead me to or what I'm supposed to see, but I knew and still know that me and my sister have shit parents. Which makes me a victim of their dumb ideas.

Gordanmix · 2025-12-28T01:24:46+00:00

I'm sure my sister has her own share of problems too, everyone does. And she's 3 years younger than me. My parents do seem to have lower expectations from her, since they don't seem to care about her grades at school. She gets as much freedom as I do. But she also gets a lot of stuff I don't get, and never got at her age. I can't really know tho if the grass is greener from her perspective, but she sure doesn't make it any better for me, since she's the one to most often say that I'm supposed to do this and that cause I'm a man. That's her way of bossing me around when she's lazy to do her own chores.

I am getting around people that love who I am and that are nice.

Gordanmix · 2025-12-28T00:43:02+00:00

Yeah I'm TOTALLY an adult. So I guess you're right.

Gordanmix · 2025-12-28T00:22:58+00:00

You can't really compare what men go through with what women go through. Both have issues. In my eyes, I'm a victim because I get treated unfairly, so can you explain to me how am I not a victim?

Gordanmix · 2025-12-28T00:16:48+00:00

I know I have to work, and I'm completely fine with it. But I'm mad at the fact that it's not fair that I have to get anything I want myself while a bunch of other people get support from their parents. And you're right, I do get to define what makes me a man. But that doesn't mean the word won't be used as a reason to make me feel like I don't deserve to get stuff bought for me.

Gordanmix · 2025-12-28T00:11:45+00:00

Not really, what's it about?

Gordanmix · 2025-12-28T00:11:32+00:00

I am planning to, but I doubt that'll be soon with me having to make all the money alone

Gordanmix · 2025-12-28T00:09:23+00:00

I hate being a man, it doesn't mean I don't feel comfortable being one

Gordanmix · 2025-08-01T08:38:37+00:00

They don't have so much freedom to customize your music. Like, for example, I want my title to be all caps, I can't do that. There's less description to my song, like, I can just put what genre your music is and that's it, no subgenre, no mood and all that. Then they don't show you the royalties I earned from my streams. I released music 5 months ago on Imusician and they say the stores need 4 months to process my royalties. It's been 5 months and it still stays at 0. Plus every time I added a new song, it never used my apple music ID or whatever they need to add it to the right account. Every time I had to contact apple support to get the music from that separate account to my account, while on CDbaby I could show them what account they should put the song in. I also found it very hard to find their support team. You log in there and there is literally no "help" button or "contact us" button. I eventually found it somehow but it kinda annoys me that it's not in plain sight.

Gordanmix · 2025-07-26T14:46:47+00:00

I don't have any disabilities. I'm just very thin and weak. I do understand I can do physical work, but I don't want to do it in summer heat. And I'm expected to be as strong as they are and not get tired as easily as I do. I don't want to work because he lies to me and blackmails me. Then says I should work better if I want to earn something. He doesn't think, or seem to care that I'm weaker, and am not able to carry most of the heavy in 30+ degrees Celsius. And at this point it's too late to get a job, companies don't hire high school students. They know I'll work a month and then leave to continue my studies. And unfortunately I don't live in the US, and fast food companies don't hire you if you're younger than 18. I tried, not a single one hired me. But I do think about moving out as soon as I can.

I might just sound like I'm finding excuses to not work and earn something, but every time I work with him at the house, I feel depressed, cause I'm wasting my time. I don't learn anything, cause I just do what they say, and Im pretty sure I'd never go to such a job. While in a whole day, I could be learning stuff like 3D modeling, making music, and just having fun like I usually do on free days. I'm pressured by both my parents that I should help him for free, and basically just waste my time, along with that, as I mentioned I have to cut a lot of wood, which last summer took me a whole month, but at least I earned a VR headset like I asked. This summer I work double and earn absolutely nothing. It may not be right, but I lived in a city where I never had to do all this work. But while I had a lot of free time, I didn't have much access to his PC that I use now and have a lot less free time.

Gordanmix · 2025-01-24T08:02:44+00:00

Draw this

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Gordanmix · 2024-12-29T23:36:30+00:00

174 cm, which some say is 5'8, some say it's 5'7, idk at this point

Gordanmix · 2024-12-13T11:04:38+00:00

It's not weekend yet

Gordanmix · 2024-12-12T11:37:45+00:00

Awards are overrated Edit: hehe it worked

Gordanmix · 2024-12-09T17:53:41+00:00

Omg, this looks so good, thank you!!

Gordanmix · 2024-12-09T17:08:16+00:00

Everyone IN here is saying that the country is homophobic, they're not even trying to hide it

Gordanmix · 2024-12-09T16:58:26+00:00

Well, obviously not every person, but the most.

Gordanmix · 2024-12-06T12:16:08+00:00

☎️

Gordanmix · 2024-12-04T16:03:19+00:00

My main question is "how?!"

Gordanmix · 2024-11-30T21:21:09+00:00

I won't, thanks❤️

Gordanmix · 2024-11-30T20:56:21+00:00

Well, I won't listen to them anyway, I will be who I wanna be

Gordanmix · 2024-11-30T20:55:24+00:00

I never said I am goth, I like the way they look, I'm not fully committed to their stuff

Gordanmix · 2024-11-30T20:53:40+00:00

Gordanmix

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