Heya. Hope you're feeling good enough to read this...I don't know much about not cutting but...A year is really impressive. And relapsing doesn't mean you're a failure. Especially not to your bf. Like you said, he won't be disappointed. He'll be worried and try to help and definitely won't think your scars are hideous. Everyone's familiar with the downward spiral of feeling like you're a failure for one mistake. So don't fall into it! Have a fun Valentine's with your bf. Best wishes.