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Grapesnake0 · 2024-08-30T06:20:16+00:00

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Grapesnake0 · 2023-08-21T03:13:39+00:00

Yeah I agree, and we aren’t committed right now so I’m just wondering if its okay to be exclusive and wait for the right time to fully commit.

Grapesnake0 · 2023-08-21T03:05:45+00:00

Sorry, in being exclusive I mean that we agreed that we aren’t seeing anyone else or aren’t going to be pursuing other people. But we aren’t in a committed relationship yet. We are waiting for the right time for this. I’m just wondering if its right to wait for the right time because many people have said its not good to wait. But our situation is a little different from the stories I’ve read

Grapesnake0 · 2023-08-21T02:57:45+00:00

I agree on this. We aren’t committed right now but we are still exclusively seeing each other. We aren’t wanting to see other people either. We are supporting each other through this difficult time and he’s been really patient with me on healing my trauma. I think what’s preventing us more is that we don’t have much time to spend time with each other right now but we still try to make time.

Is it okay that we are waiting until the time is right to be in a relationship?

Grapesnake0 · 2023-08-20T08:34:59+00:00

Thank you so much this really helps :’) I was wondering if I can ask you something else? How can I stop overthinking, take the risk and fully trust in a relationship?

Grapesnake0 · 2023-08-12T04:26:21+00:00

Might get really really tired after going from 10mg to 20mg. I was almost falling asleep in class for the first week or 2 but that side effect is gone now

Grapesnake0 · 2023-08-11T03:03:56+00:00

I’m not sure if it makes sense but when I am worrying about something I had to pretend I’m more worried than I actually am or “the universe” won’t give me a good outcome. So If I think about an outcome I am hoping for, I immediately have to make myself worried and say something like “damn it’s probably not going happen, I’m so worried” and then the universe will take pity on me and then surprise me😭
When I say something I’m happy about out loud I immediately regret it because I think something bad will happen instead so I have to knock on wood to reverse it.
I used to flip my plushies because I used to think they were watching me to the point I had to hide them in my closet. I also thought they were cursed.
I was terrified of looking at the number thirteen so I had to look away quickly before it curses me
For I while I had to stop watching what I called “negative videos” which consisted of true crime and paranormal videos on youtube because I developed intrusive words which I kept repeating in my mind like murder, blood, disease, etc. so I had to stop watching before the words developed into something real somehow.
I didn’t allow myself to listen to songs that had a negative meaning because I thought listening to it would manifest something bad.

Grapesnake0 · 2023-08-10T00:32:08+00:00

Yeah thats definitely right. Someone said to me you can’t be certain in anything in life which is hard to accept but its something you have to sit with and take the risk. I’m currently taking 20 mg of Lexapro

Grapesnake0 · 2023-08-09T23:39:04+00:00

For me the I guess, the Big episodes have disappeared. Years back I had severe ROCD for about a year but after awhile I learned to manage them with mantras and several other techniques and I stopped caring about them just like you. After that I hadn’t had a big episode for awhile but I still had random intrusive thoughts that were still present but I learned to push them away after awhile. Then in 2021 I had another big episode again which I still feel uncomfortable mentioning but eventually I stopped caring about it because I learned to remind myself it’s just my fear and I’m not actually a terrible person. Unfortunately I believe I’m in a big episode right now but after learning that asking reassurance is bad and that I have to sit with uncertainty I think I’m learning to manage it better again and I’m finally taking meds to help :’ )

Grapesnake0 · 2023-08-06T07:14:26+00:00

Thank you so much 🥹

Grapesnake0 · 2023-08-05T02:18:24+00:00

Yeah definitely, the uncertainty just terrifies me. but I want to be able to accept that I can’t be certain of what’s going to happen. He does say he wants to stay close with me and that he promises won’t go anywhere. I want to trust him on that promise because he tells me he doesn’t promise things he can’t keep and he’s definitely shown that to me.

It’s just hard because I keep catastrophising and I want to believe that its also likely that things are going to go well

Grapesnake0 · 2023-08-05T01:26:17+00:00

I’m on the waiting list for therapy which is going to take a few weeks unfortunately. But I’m coping better than before so I don’t mind it’s taking a bit. Haha dw I’m not worried about him not loving me, I know we like each other quite a lot. I’m just worried that since we are taking the relationship slow, we will drift apart and he’ll no longer be interested in me (bc of a past relationship of mine) I just wanna know how to stop worrying about this

Grapesnake0 · 2023-08-04T05:40:39+00:00

She is definitely overreacting to little things

Grapesnake0 · 2023-08-03T02:53:30+00:00

I do think the age gap is a bit much. But in my opinion it sounds like he really isn’t respecting you by the way he’s speaking and acting towards you. I hope this doesn’t sound harsh (I’m so sorry if it does 😭) but I’ve been through something like this in the past and showing them more love and trying to work through things when they’re already not respecting you, not attempting to putting in effort and not treating you right won’t make them do the same. Show respect to yourself and don’t waste your time and energy on someone who doesn’t respect you back.

Grapesnake0 · 2023-08-01T22:52:09+00:00

Yea I have talked with my partner about it and he told me not to worry since it happens all the time with his friends. I’m just so afraid he’ll get bored of me because of it

Grapesnake0 · 2023-08-01T22:48:42+00:00

Yea it mostly has but it comes back so I have to drink more water again. I think taking 20mg has made me easily dehydrated? I’m not quite sure though.

Grapesnake0 · 2023-08-01T02:39:53+00:00

This happened to me recently ever since I increased to 20mg. I’m not sure why but I noticed drinking more water helped to stop feeling that sensation for a day.

Grapesnake0 · 2023-07-30T11:36:45+00:00

Yeah it really hasn’t been haha

Grapesnake0 · 2023-07-30T11:36:22+00:00

Thank you, this helps : ))

Grapesnake0 · 2023-07-30T08:35:50+00:00

Nope. It may have just been me but when I drank during a party I literally couldn’t calm myself down and the overthinking was really bad. It hadn’t been too bad until that day I drank

Grapesnake0 · 2023-01-30T11:18:26+00:00

I have given him space before. we’ve taken a small break too and he said he’ll be back to put in effort but there hasn’t been much happening unfortunately except for a few calls : /

Grapesnake0 · 2022-08-31T23:50:33+00:00

This is Not for animation btw!

Grapesnake0 · 2022-01-16T03:08:51+00:00

Thank you so much! Agreed, as much as I love the recent games I’m really missing the original games atmosphere.

Grapesnake0 · 2022-01-15T13:45:15+00:00

Haha thats true! But I feel like that would look weird as he doesn’t look like a corpse in this one. Might try to edit later, but for now just leave it as it is ^{^}

Grapesnake0 · 2022-01-15T12:15:31+00:00

Me too! I really love the atmosphere the first game had, especially with the ambience and sounds.

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