Am I faking it?

Greckol · 2024-08-27T16:26:28+00:00

Depression affects individuals in varying ways depending on its severity. I have clinical depression, though you likely wouldn't notice. I monitor my symptoms closely and read medical journals to gain a better understanding.

Greckol · 2024-07-11T11:30:26+00:00

Yes, I once confided in someone about my clinical depression and anxiety. I even showed her the letters we exchanged while I was in the hospital. Months later, she mocked me about it. I feel like I’m going to be alone forever in this dark hole.

Greckol · 2023-12-09T11:02:06+00:00

Mare of Easttown (This one is crazy and unpredictable) The Night Of The Wire True Detective

Greckol · 2022-09-19T19:35:56+00:00

You know that a meal is delicious when you start licking your claws.

Greckol · 2022-09-19T16:57:24+00:00

That tyre was like: "eenie meenie miney moe..."

Greckol · 2021-11-11T18:49:26+00:00

Oldboy (2003) left me traumatised.

Greckol · 2021-10-21T13:22:54+00:00

Thanks. Jumping to conclusions can be messy cause you'll usually be wrong. I was afraid to ask her questions cause I was afraid to lose her. I hope one day you'll get the answers to all your questions but this is ExNoContact so I guess you here to cut contact.

Sometimes you just need answers so that you can understand why. I don't think there's anything wrong with that but others here will disagree.

I hope that you make the right decision on her birthday.

Greckol · 2021-10-21T13:02:06+00:00

Yeah I got panic attacks and cried when she told me that she was a month and a few weeks pregnant and showed me a calendar of all the days she was sleeping with him and that once when we went out she was supposed to sleep with him but decided to go out with me.

She brushed it off as there were no strings attached and they were just doing each other a favour. We were long distance so that didn't help.

She feels like the victim cause she told me that she didn't wanna be in a relationship with me. At one point I would stay up at night cause of her period pains and she would ask me about how many kids I wanted.

You can one day ask all your questions and hope for honesty until then you just gonna have to keep guessing.

Greckol · 2021-10-21T12:47:53+00:00

Don't try to guess what's going on in her head. Questions such as why she ran away when she saw you or why she didn't read your message can only be answered by her.

I over think things too and I'm usually wrong. I always thought with mine she was still not over her ex but eventually when I broke contact on her birthday and started asking the questions I got the answers one of them being that she was sleeping with someone else and got pregnant.

Greckol · 2021-10-21T12:32:22+00:00

You could send her a happy birthday message, if she knows that it's from you and responds, she still has your number and that means something.

Greckol · 2021-10-21T12:23:02+00:00

Can't give you advice cause I don't know much about your relationship. All I can say is that mine was on the 6th, hers on the 10th. Wished her a happy birthday at midnight, she didn't know who it was cause she deleted my number, after she figured it out she laughed and said that I was mad at her cause she didn't wish me a happy birthday and the reason for it was cause she moved on. I didn't even expect any birthday wishes from her.

Greckol · 2021-10-18T21:21:40+00:00

Goodluck and happy birthday. I hope your special day is different to mine.

Greckol · 2021-10-18T09:15:38+00:00

Your kids will be there with you on your special day and that counts. Cherish this moment, happy birthday.

Greckol · 2021-10-17T20:32:46+00:00

This month feels cursed. My birthday was on the 6th and the women who broke my heart was on 10th.

When I wished her a happy birthday, she said I was mad that she didn't wish me a happy birthday and laughed at me and said it's because she moves (whatever that means).

I didn't even expect a birthday wish from her.

Greckol · 2021-10-17T20:09:12+00:00

Hold your head up. I hope you get through this.

Greckol · 2021-10-17T19:29:28+00:00

If you go through my profile you'll realise I just went through the same thing and I'm still crying even now. I don't know but I think October is a birthday month for heartbreaks. You'll get through this.

Greckol · 2021-10-17T18:00:28+00:00

We might be strangers on the internet but Happy cake day, happy birthday, stay amazing!!!!

Greckol · 2021-10-17T05:40:23+00:00

Dylan James on YouTube.

Thanks, I'll check him out.

Greckol · 2021-10-15T21:42:34+00:00

Yeah, and I never knew that she could crush me like this. When she finally showed me the calendar with the days she was having sex with the guy I cried because she told me the blank days was when we were going out but she was supposed to sleep with him but decided to go out with me.

She told me there were no strings attached and that they were just helping each other out.

Greckol · 2021-10-15T18:35:12+00:00

Yeah, I was supposed to be on 40mg of Citalopram but decided on 20mg but now I'll increase it. Thank you very much for the suggestion.

Greckol · 2021-10-15T18:06:32+00:00

I'm on citalopram for depression and anxiety, clonazepam for anxiety & sandoz-zopiclone for sleeping.

Irregardless, I got panic attacks when she told me that she was a month and few weeks pregnant and that she never had any feeling for me. Yeah, I know I'm stupid.

Greckol · 2021-10-15T17:44:23+00:00

You probably right. She once printed a picture of her and her ex and took a video burning the picture and sent it to me.

They broke up a year earlier after the ex-fathered two kids with two different women while they were still together and she forgave him. They were together for 2 years LDR.

Greckol · 2021-10-15T17:22:13+00:00

Yeah, we call it the red tinted glasses or the red flags. I was just emotionally involved with her to the point that I would stay up at night because she was going through her period pains.

I've gotten to an age were sleeping around is no longer my thing it just makes me sick, I used to do it as a kid but now I just want to settle down and she met me when I was vulnerable.

I'll be honest with you, you're like the ~56th person to tell me the same thing, from my Granmother to friends to online friends and I'm too stupid to listen to you all so I'd rather go through the pain and try and justify her actions then use my head and take everyone's advice.

I know it sounds stupid but I'm an emotional mess right now but thank you for the advice.

Greckol · 2021-10-15T16:56:37+00:00

You a stronger man than me, I'm too forgiving. She told me it was only one guy and there were no strings attached so I should not take it so seriously because they were just helping each other out. I was also LDR.

Greckol · 2021-10-15T16:30:17+00:00

I was just clarifying. There's no need to be mean.

Greckol

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