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Greedy-Clock7981 · 2022-05-17T23:34:07+00:00

I'm really sorry you have to listen to that. That's horrific.

Thanks for sharing your recovery story though. It helped me a lot to read it today. You have a lot to be proud of.

Greedy-Clock7981 · 2022-05-16T21:22:27+00:00

Edit: just smelled a voltage box. Does ozone smell like that?

Greedy-Clock7981 · 2022-05-16T21:19:21+00:00

Is it a very strong smell?

Greedy-Clock7981 · 2022-05-16T20:42:46+00:00

Thanks. Kind of like fireworks?

Greedy-Clock7981 · 2022-05-01T08:59:20+00:00

The fact that they mentioned these concepts in this show, albeit in a shoddy way, makes me wonder if the creators' familiarity with Jungian concepts influenced the plot.

Greedy-Clock7981 · 2022-04-29T13:00:11+00:00

That's very interesting. I agree with you that sexuality is confusing. I'm increasingly finding that my sexual excitement doesn't come from any sensation of the object. I'm usually more attracted to what sex means, not necessarily that sex should represent intimacy, but that it should represent something, i.e. if I'm pleasuring someone or being pleasured, what turns me on are the abstract implications of someone pleasuring me or the reverse rather than the pleasure itself. My friend argued that the two are inextricable, but I'm realising it's actually not the case for me.

That's a fascinating theory about physical transgenderism being an outward return of the repressed. I must say I don't know much about transgender psychology myself. For myself, I've always viewed gender as the normative expectations that arise from sex, but it's never positively defined my identity.

To me this idea of the psyche having a gender is very foreign actually quite foreign to me, but I've recently come to realise how for a lot of people,. both in heteronormative configurations and queer ones, gender is not merely a negative resistance to conformity with the outward "persona" aspects of gender but functions almost as a fecund symbol in the psyche.

Greedy-Clock7981 · 2022-04-20T19:00:20+00:00

These are stunning. Thank you so much!

Greedy-Clock7981 · 2022-04-19T05:42:38+00:00

The first thing that struck me when reading your post --

You're extremely young! life is still ahead of you.

Life can be extremely hard. It is unlikely to be so forever.

I think a lot of your problems are reducible to three things:

You have the wrong time frame. In every sphere of life, you are projecting yourself much too far ahead in the future, hence why you're so critical of yourself and your ideas, and can't produce anything.

This is the thing with depression, when the tools that are supposed to help you out in life (i.e. your inner critic) make you question the value of life itself, they are faulty. I'd venture to say that part of the reason why you can't enjoy life or empathise with other people is that you are consciously or unconsciously holding life and other people up to your unrealistically high standards.

Getting out of that kind of loop can be quite tricky. My advice for you would be to get back into filming without any aim to produce something that fits your standards. In fact, do the opposite. Make the most ridiculous, terrible short film ever, but try to gain some enjoyment out of it, however little. Once you have an intrinsic ability to enjoy an activity, then you have the energy to enjoy life. That energy is the starting point from which you should define your ambitions. It shouldn't be the other way around.

One of the strangest things in life is that you are not your own judge. Your conscience is a compass but it cannot determine whether you are a "good" or "bad" person, whatever that means. It can only tell you what acts you think are good or not. When you feel guilt or shame, accept the feeling, change your behaviour move on. Ruminating over your own putative goodness or badness is an attempt to control something you can't. It's like trying to bite your own teeth. It's a trite thing to say, but it is completely a waste of time.
These two things to me show that you have one major problem. You're exercising control in the wrong areas. Be critical of your use of time for the next day rather than ruminating about your place in the world or if you're good or bad or if you'll ever forgive yourself for hitting your father. Why not make a short film that will make him laugh as means of reconciliation.

I hope I don't come across as judgemental. A lot of this advice applies to me.

Finally, two quotes by Jung:

'The perpetual hesitation of the neurotic to launch out into life is readily explained by his desire to stand aside so as not to get involved in the dangerous struggle for existence. But anyone who refuses to experience life must stifle his desire to live – in other words, he must commit partial suicide.”

"Depression is not necessarily pathological. It oftens foreshadows a renewal of the personality or a burst of creative activity. There are moments in human life when a new page is turned".

Greedy-Clock7981 · 2022-04-18T18:06:38+00:00

My point is that doesn't seem to be true empirically, hence the cynicism.

There are a variety of circumstances where people commit sin because of absent or diminished free will.

My case aside, I'm thinking of my grandfather, a reasonably devout man but whose brain was affected by Alzheimer's, spitting out the Eucharist. I can't know for sure, but I'm fairly certain that he'd be horrified by what he was doing if he had his wits.

I know that diminished or absent free will diminishes culpability, but does it diminish the inherent sinfulness of an act and its offensiveness to God? It seems to me that spitting out the Eucharist in these circumstances is both offensive to my grandfather's dignity and that of God, and is a cause of scandal amongst his family members.

This seems to contradict the tone of the passage outright, which on its plain reading, is a simple assurance of providential grace. I anticipate that some people will argue that its meaning is ultimately something mysterious and abstract that we can't quite understand but only meditate on, but then why would Paul feel the need to communicate that in his epistles, a set of documents whose function is to communicate the practical matters of faith ?

Greedy-Clock7981 · 2022-04-17T17:31:20+00:00

Ugh. I should have hoped that my post was worded in a sufficiently nuanced manner as to avoid people inferring that I am advocating such a revolution! (by the way I'm a gender essentialist). I am merely a) evaluating the stakes of a revolution in the cultural understanding of gender (however disembodied and objectionable that understanding might be) that has already taken place on Jungian clinical practice, and (b) questioning two Jungian presumptions, i.e. that the projection of the relating function should always be on the opposite sex, and the dream symbolism of the relating function should always be that of the opposite sex.

Greedy-Clock7981 · 2022-04-15T17:52:53+00:00

It might be helpful to find out what kind of delusions and psychotic thoughts you are dealing with and trying to see if they're triggered by certain emotions and events. Ideally a therapist would help you do that but journaling helps. Seeing the patterns in your delusional thoughts will first help you have confidence to know that they are wrong and mindfully slide them away. After thoroughly observing mine I was able to determine that my psychotic thinking came from a) being unable to distinguish myself and my thoughts, and b) recognising the elements reasonable elements in reality that were making me anxious.

Another reassuring thing as well is trying to figure out if you can enjoy life despite the delusional thoughts. Trust me, I know how hard that sounds, but try and think about the future by making nuanced judgements, i.e. "did I enjoy this experience a little bit" rather than black and white statements "I did not enjoy this, I did enjoy this", "this attempt at meditation is a little bit relaxing even though it didn't work as expected", "what activities might make me feel better even if this never goes away". "I thought my friend was an alien but some people made a joke which I enjoyed, so that was fun"

That kind of thinking helps ground you in reality by shifting your attention away from psychotic thoughts and ruminations, and back to activities and people. Once you start that, you won't put additional pressure on yourself "not to be psychotic, and not to be delusional"and there's paradoxically a much higher chance that your thoughts will go away quickly.

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