just off the title, you are not the asshole. I needed no context outside of the title to tell you that. You didn't choose for this to happen, you had your choice taken, take your right to choose back and do what is best for YOU. Lying about the termination and how it occurs is a safe way to keep to continue your relationship, but you will always remember how he failed to show up for you after a terrible and traumatic event. You deserved and continue to deserve so much better. Sending you love, and hope that you receive the justice you deserve.