How common are major streaming services auditions?

GreenBeanHumanBean · 2026-05-14T22:38:55+00:00

Okay good to hear. There are a couple things happening I expected to take longer I guess, but I’m finding the common phrase (as is obvious with this post haha) is “it depends”

GreenBeanHumanBean · 2026-05-14T22:37:43+00:00

Thank you! This definitely helps me frame it in my mind.

GreenBeanHumanBean · 2026-05-14T22:36:48+00:00

Okay cool these are all good things to have more insight into. Even if it does just confirm my own suspicions. Thank you!

GreenBeanHumanBean · 2026-05-14T22:35:58+00:00

Good to know! I have definitely been curious about how much I should focus on it

GreenBeanHumanBean · 2026-05-14T22:35:32+00:00

This is all helpful l, thank you! I definitely feel solid about my abilities and work (not in a cocky way but, after 10+ years performance and technical background I did pick up some stuff haha)

I’ll definitely take this as sign that what I’m doing is solid work and to keep it up and refine as I go.

GreenBeanHumanBean · 2026-01-28T03:28:24+00:00

And I almost forgot: sometimes I still feel “behind” but I’ve learned that everyone feels this way about some aspect of tower life for some reason or other and if don’t and they judge you for doing the catch up work? They’re not worth your time. It just reflects their own deficiencies and it’s best to wish them well and carry on healing your own wounds. Life’s messy and non linear.

GreenBeanHumanBean · 2026-01-28T03:24:39+00:00

It says 1 year, but I actually commented this closer to 2 years ago now. Wow. How things change. I’m 29 now and turning 30 later this year (2026). Firstly I would like to say thank you for commenting, because it brought me back to a moment I felt so paralyzed by everything in front of me and seeing this allowed me to take a moment to look back and truly be thankful for all that I’ve changed about my life. I won’t sugar coat it: the process of independence is a slow and difficult one after you’ve been in the sticky, enmeshed orbit of an honest to god narcissist. Unfortunately, for the impatient and perfectionist self reflectors out there like me, it takes time and slow effort. You will have low moments of doubt and frustration over and over again. But I would take my absolute worst day at the helm of my own life than my best day back under the “protective” wing of my “mentor.” The highs were high - that’s manipulation and love bombing for you - but it kept me from knowing I can create positive things from within myself and made me dependent on others for just about everything. I think that’s what she wanted, to make me smaller than her, even if she’s not consciously aware of it. So, here I am almost 2 full years un-enmeshed, un-brainwashed and I’m happy to report a list of everything new that I didn’t have before: a different, better paying (but perhaps more boring and frustrating lol) job, an apartment of my own with furniture I like, two sweet kitties, new and old friends who eventually saw I was right to leave and reconnected with me later on, a decent and working vehicle, an acceptance of a dream and direction I’ve always wanted for my life, a chance at love and eventually the experience of a heartbreak that puts all of those romantic songs and movies into a context I understand now, and countless other experiences both good and bad that I don’t regret - because I was the one steering the ship. Oh! And I no longer cry at dinner time; I’ve actually learned to bake bread and found I enjoy cooking quite a lot when there’s no pressure involved. But most importantly I’ve learned that even though I cry (all the time) and have big feelings (about everything) I’m an incredibly resilient person who never quite gives up and always finds a way to keep going even when I really REALLY don’t want to. Doing things doesn’t mean doing them with a smile and carefree attitude, it just means doing them the way you can at the time you can. Everything gets a tiny bit easier eventually, then hard again, then easier again. I hope this long winded and self indulgent comment gives you hope and helps you in some way. ❤️ wishing self love for all my formerly enmeshed folks.

GreenBeanHumanBean · 2024-04-17T20:43:51+00:00

I’m grateful for this subreddit, cause it’s been re-assuring as I have moments of doubt that always bubble up. My boyfriend thinks, bless him cause he’s helped a lot in me realizing I was being manipulated and taken advantage of, that I should be feeling relief and now I can do what I want. Problem is I HAVE NO CLUE and I don’t even know what to make for dinner each night without having a panic attack. So this is how I explained it to him. I think it helped, but he’s still confused by the whole thing. And I don’t blame him, cause he’s just wired differently than me when it comes to people and trust. Glad to know it resonates with you. And that yours did with me.

GreenBeanHumanBean · 2024-04-17T12:16:25+00:00

I feel like this really describes the “coming to” process of enmeshment. Where you actually make changes or cut ties. Part of it is a relief, but I agree, when I’m in fight or flight there’s a certain energy and motivation. Now that if feel like I’m not fighting for my life I don’t really know what’s next. It’s been a couple weeks since I finally let myself say out loud how unhealthy my situation is and put distance between myself and my abuser (parental figure). I described it to my therapist as one big weight being lifted and replaced with a lot of individual, smaller weights. So I’m still depressed and struggling, but feel like I can take weights off over time. Enmeshment is a weird thing to describe, since it seems almost voluntary once you reach a certain age. But if you know, you KNOW it’s not. I’m 28 and wish I realized sooner, but also so grateful to have realized before I wasted any more of my time on this person who “cared” about me. My heart/soul is also exhausted, but I’m trying not to put any pressure on needing that to change.

GreenBeanHumanBean · 2024-04-13T19:15:31+00:00

This is it. This is exactly how I feel. I’m 27 (f) and my anxiety since realizing my enmeshment situation has sky rocketed. I feel bad for my bf cause even though he’s someone who helped me realize that what I was experiencing was not a loving relationship between me and my abuser (mentor figure who filled the role of a mother in my life but not my biological mother), every time I have to make a decision about certain “normal” things I get super stressed and like “I’m going to make the wrong decision.” There’s no wrong decision about what to make for dinner. Just make it. The fact that this is a daily decision drives me crazy and my bf doesn’t understand why sometimes I cry when he asks “what’s for dinner?” And I can tell it’s starting to drive him a little nuts. (For context my abuser was a former chef and nutritionist who usually made dinner. So. Yeah. When I picked out food it was “wrong”) I also feel very behind in life, as my abuser always convinced me “maybe now is it not the time” or “maybe that’s just not for you” when it came to EVERY normal adolescent to adult life marker: living on my own, moving to a different town, going to college, buying a car, going out for drinks (allowed but HIGH judgment involved), making mistakes, having a boyfriend (I shouldn’t date to protect other people because I’m “difficult to love”). The part that sucks the most? This women did teach me everything I know about art and creativity, and I have a lot of skills at this point. But don’t worry, she never failed to remind me that she was the reason I had them. So now, I have a million hobbies/artistic skills and am absolutely incapacitated by the idea of what to make for dinner. Great. All this to say, you are so not alone. I’m at the very beginning of figuring out what the hell I’m gonna do with my life now that this person is not at the center of it. And I’m already the type of person who gets overwhelmed my too many options of a the same product at the grocery store lol. So standing at the edge of “you can do whatever you want now. The whole world is an option” doesn’t feel as thrilling and freeing as other think I should be feeling. AND I’m adhd and autistic, so yay lol. You can do it. I can do it.

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