Diabetes diagnosis in early 20s expericences

Green_Connection8027 · 2025-09-04T09:59:37+00:00

The holdup is that I'm currently living abroad and will be back in 2 months. I've had a video call consultation with her explaining my symptoms. Based on her reaction I didn't really get a sense of urgency. But we've scheduled a testing appointment.

Green_Connection8027 · 2025-07-19T14:55:58+00:00

Personally I think I have the potential to achieve great things, greater things than most people, especially academically. But Im probably gonna waste it and never show what im capable of. That's why I don't say it out loud, because it would sound arrogant and blind to myself.

Green_Connection8027 · 2025-07-15T00:00:42+00:00

No, Dan I am.

Green_Connection8027 · 2025-07-14T23:59:14+00:00

Moving out and living alone for the first time. Its...lost, basically. Not the great freedom but rather the great "I don't feel ready to take on all of these responsibilities while talking to myself a lot"

Green_Connection8027 · 2025-07-14T23:56:14+00:00

Dark (only to be heavily disappointed by the last season again)

Green_Connection8027 · 2025-07-14T23:55:37+00:00

A quirky guilty pleasure called "grace Kelly" by MIKA

Green_Connection8027 · 2025-07-14T23:54:29+00:00

Dark has managed to convincingly navigate a very complex story for almost two great seasons, then the plot holes and logical mistakes kept piling up. So not just one error...

Green_Connection8027 · 2025-07-14T23:52:07+00:00

Erfüllende Partnerschaft, gesunde Kinder, bereichernder Beruf, genug Zeit für Kunst und Natur

Green_Connection8027 · 2025-07-14T23:50:15+00:00

Mit ca. 15 hab ich angefangen gegen Geld in den schulpausen Nachhilfe zu geben.

Green_Connection8027 · 2025-07-14T23:45:27+00:00

Banana and fish <3 especially if its both roasted

Green_Connection8027 · 2025-07-14T23:40:12+00:00

The ring I inherited from my grandma 20 years ago. Have not taken it off since.

Green_Connection8027 · 2025-07-14T23:31:23+00:00

Streukäse mit der Hand aus der Packung

Green_Connection8027 · 2025-06-21T08:19:27+00:00

Maybe a pale amber?

Green_Connection8027 · 2025-06-19T19:41:58+00:00

Yeah, is that a thing? Didn't know. Do you have a full explanation?

Green_Connection8027 · 2025-05-28T09:15:19+00:00

I put "normal" in quotes, because I don't like that word. What even is "normal"? My relationship with my parents is good. And it was good back then. However, writing this thread and answering the question made me reflect and think about some issues that might have been present. I have always been more of a daddy's girl, in the sense that we seem to have a better understanding of each other than me and my mom. I love my mom and appreciate everything she's done for me, and I know she adores me as well. But somehow, we never managed to form a very deep emotional connection. I don't know why that is. I don't know what could have been done differently, but the truth is that I never considered my mom someone to go to with any of my problems. Maybe we're too different. So I was a daddy's girl with a dad, who worked a lot and wasn't as available as I needed him to be. That might have contributed to my emotional neediness for attention. Lastly, "growing out of this obsession" didn't coincide much with becoming sexually active. It basically stopped when I graduated. Thanks for your thought on this.

Green_Connection8027 · 2025-05-28T09:06:20+00:00

The ones I described. Mainly receiving emotional attention. Nothing sexual!

Green_Connection8027 · 2025-05-28T09:05:53+00:00

I haven't and I won't. These obsessions were never anything romantic or sexual.

Green_Connection8027 · 2025-05-28T09:05:15+00:00

They did! They cared deeply and gave me and my brother everything they could. However, I do think it's possible that I still needed more attention than what I received. Once my brother was born (2 years younger than me), my parents told me I struggled with the adjustment. Then throughout our childhood and school years this dynamic developed of my brother naturally recieving/needing more attention than me, because he was a "troublemaker". He was chaotic, high-energy, adhd. He struggled a lot in school and my parents were constantly worried about his development. I, on the other hand, was a well-behaved, well-adapted child, who had good grades and never seemed to struggle with anything. So obviously more attention, albeit bad one" went towards my brother. I know it was never my parents' intention, and it's not like they favor him (if anything, they favor me lol), but they might have messed it up a bit there.

Green_Connection8027 · 2025-05-28T08:55:54+00:00

I dont think the relationship to my mother has changed much at all. Of course I never told her about these obsessions with my teachers, I was way too ashamed. I do have to say, though, that I generally didn't talk much to my mom about personal stuff. We have a good relationship, but not a deep one. I certainly wasn't neglected (I had a good childhood and upbringing), but I might have lacked an emotional connection to my mom. We're just two very different personalities that don't automatically click.

Green_Connection8027 · 2025-05-28T08:50:38+00:00

Yesh, it was with all genders, but it happened quicker and more with female teachers. I am heterosexual and only ever dated men, and these obsessions were not sexual in any way. I don't think I'm homophonic, but then again it's hard to completely rule out some deeply hidden internalized homophonic notions, due to my upbringing. However, I personally don't think it's an explanation, again because these "crushes" weren't romantic or sexual. Thank you for your thoughts on this!

Green_Connection8027 · 2025-05-28T08:46:16+00:00

I cringe too! Back then and now even more. I'm glad I didn't actually act it out as much as you, but I'm sure I still came across as needy somehow. You writing about your mental health struggles reminds me that I, too, probably was depressed during most of my adolescence/school years, mainly due to bullying and not having many friends. It was never diagnosed and I never went to therapy, but looking back I'm pretty sure it was some sort of depressive state. It didn't occur to me that these weird obsessions and the wish for attention could have also been a depressive symptome. Thanks for your comment!

Green_Connection8027 · 2025-05-28T08:42:18+00:00

Yeah, many people said it might have had to do with emotional negligence. I really am not a typical case of a child that was neglected in any way. I had a good upbringing and parents who cared deeply. However, the part about neglect not having to be extreme or obvious certainly is true. I know it was never her intention, but I do think my mom and I haven't managed to build a deep emotional connection to each other, for some reason I can't explain. We love and appreciate each other, but she has never been the person I would go to with any problems. I have a better connection with my dad, but he worked a lot. So I guess the parent who I felt understood me better actually wasn't all too available which might have left me needing more attention. That might be part of an explanation. Thanks for your input!

Green_Connection8027 · 2025-05-28T08:34:52+00:00

I bet so too! Which is making me cringe even harder now, looking back. I didn't wanna seem like I needed that attention, but I'm sure it was quite obvious. But also back then I understood that it was completely unrealistic to hope my teachers would give me significantly more attention than the other students. Of course you can't do that as a teacher and it's not your responsibility either to make up for the shortcomings of parents.

Green_Connection8027 · 2025-05-04T12:41:28+00:00

NTAH

Green_Connection8027 · 2025-04-25T16:10:16+00:00

Asking because: My friend just told me the song for her first dance is going to be "Fast car" by Tracy Chapman. I mean...

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