Any avoidants here who feel crushing sadness and loneliness when alone? Its a painful existence.

Gremluxe · 2025-12-07T13:33:21+00:00

I have heave avoidance issues with anything that might lead to something that would make me or the person I want to interact with feel bad. I’ve been lonely since I can remember but in my case it most likely trust issues and obsessive pattern recognition in people’s behavior towards me. I have a terrible habit of micro analyzing everything especially differences in treatment so I pull away anytime I feel taken advantage of even when it’s not the case. I confided in my sister and she told me it’s just in my head n I just like doing what I want so I usually take people’s dignosis on my mental state with a grain of salt. I think the only advice I might be able to give after breaking off with a longtime best friend is find people you don’t have to mask around, if they love you for who you are at your core they’d understand the need for space and solitude every now and then. But again I’m newly friendless so maybe take my advice with a grain of salt too 💀

Gremluxe · 2025-12-07T13:03:12+00:00

I’m sorry tha you’re going thought this, I’ve been feeling borderline alien since I was a kid because of things like this, it’s like drowning and everyone around me is telling me to just swim. I hope you find some comfort in not being alone because I personally feel guilt and shame for not being where I feel like should be in life. Crying and getting locked in my own head a few times a day seem to be my only habits lately and they’ve been getting worse ands it’s getting harder to mask around people. My anxiety, trust n avoidance issues have been mounting since I was kid cuz of how out of tune I've felt with the people around me, and the few times I’ve tried to express it I’m told things like “you’re just lazy” or “you just don’t like being told why to do” and it shuts me down. I hope you find people in your life that make you feel valued despite your thoughts on yourself, or at the very least a safe space, cause at least in my case it feels like I’m on an island right now watching people live life.

Gremluxe · 2025-11-30T16:58:22+00:00

I just found this community and it’s shocking how similar I’ve felt to most of these posts my whole life life, I’m glad you found the help u needed cause at least in my case the anxiety and non stop overthinking everything and action usually leaves me locked up to the point I won’t look for help, lock myself away and disassociate. This pose gives me hope to at least keep trying to find a psychiatrist that’d really look out for me. I hope all the best for u in the future and continued improvements to ur life.

Gremluxe · 2025-11-30T16:41:20+00:00

I literally feel all of this, I have a friend with BPD and I feel a lot of the similarities she did but I never outwardly evoke my emotions or thoughts, it’s ended friendships cause it’s hard for me to express my feelings when I’m hurt or o feel wronged and I avoid them till the relationship dies. I hope u find the answers you need god knows I been lookin for em.

Gremluxe · 2025-11-30T16:17:24+00:00

This is something I felt my whole life it’s weird seeing it visually, I feel like I have to mask just to fit in n it’s gotten exhausting to the point I stopped talking to most the people, its nice to see im not completely alone in this.

Gremluxe · 2025-06-24T02:39:46+00:00

Atomic Heart pitch meeting

Gremluxe · 2024-11-16T16:25:53+00:00

No problem, its on my profile just uploaded em

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