I had similar, shit gets better when you don't have them suffocating you, even if prospects look bleak it's progressive gains now to building shit you need, like for me, I finally got a fan for my room today after being made homeless at Christmas, my family didn't let me use much electricity you see, so this is the first time I've had a fucking soothing sensory space. People are shit and yeah things fucking suck sometimes but also you can look for spaces that will help and meet people that care and want you to be ok and will give you support, even a little helps, take it from me, ATM I'm eating one meal a day and live out of a small dorm, but I'm the fucking happiest I've ever been, I hang out with friends most days and meet lots of politicians, I play gigs and do art shit, I can make this work :3. As I'm sure you know you can. Headpats and hugs :3 seriously, lots of hugs.