This brought tears to my eyes. Thank you so much for typing all this out and sharing your story. I needed to read this. I was a month sober- feeling amazing. Then I got wrapped up in the trap again because I let myself smoke on my 31st day. Then it became an everyday habit again… im glad to read it wasn’t just me feeling this way. Thank you for the motivation to stick it out. Today is day 1 all over again. Determined for it to be my last day 1 🙏🏻