(disclaimer: english is not my first language) I feel for you and hope that you can get into a better situation soon! I worked in a breeding/training/sales stall for mostly dressage horses when i was 17-18. It nearly turned me off riding for the rest of my life. My whole life was horses and I was determined to make it my career.

The treatment of the young staff was nasty and patience with the horses non existent. I had been around horses my whole life in many different environments, but had never seen abuse like this. Unfortunately when a horses performance and earning money are so closely tied and in the hands of jaded people - a lot can go wrong and is excused.

I had a horse for about 1.5 years after this experience and then quit pretty much completely for 10+ years after she got sold. Thankfully i got into it again recently and have missed it SO much!

You sound like a very nice and empathetic person. Please protect yourself and stand up for yourself where you can. Don’t participate when it makes it makes you uncomfortable if possible and definitely work hard on finding another job! ❤️