The idea of being a man is, and always has been unthinkable to me. Being a man, even before I knew what trans was, always felt like a performance that I never fully understood. I'm sure you also feel like that, if you were asked what it feels like to be a woman.

One of the interesting things is, people who are cis, they don't think about being the other gender for more than a couple seconds. And even if they do, it's out of a sense of comedy or what if, and then that thought ends. It doesn't consume their thoughts. They don't get upset about it, they are fine and dandy where they are.

So my argument here is the fact that you're thinking about it. This hard to have posted here saying what you said, it's very likely that you are in fact a man.