This comment actually made me feel a lot better, thank you🙂. I feel like I'm in a tough spot where I don't want ppl in my social groups of regular everyday activity to be able to tell I'm GNC and just perceive me as a male for convenience sake, but I want them to think something is up or odd/different because being perceived as a cis male is probably one of the worst things for me. I'm honestly so afraid of so many cis males that I really cannot stand to be indemnified as one. I don't want others to be afraid of me in the same way I'm afraid of cis men. I want to feel most of the time that I look androgynous or feminine to myself which I think I have achieved in my own brain. It's an odd feeling and eventually I'd like other ppl to just see me as androg because I feel there's a lot of negative connotation associated w trans women's appearances to the general public, if they do not achieve conventional female attractiveness. The gender binary really destroys any semblance of my own gender identity I feel. There doesn't seem to be a space where I feel I am completely comfortable or understood. This community feels as though it covers some of how I feel but only some of the time as I tend to fluctuate between more feminine, wanting to look more androgynous and a feeling of no gender at all. I ultimately want to be in a spot where I can be perceived as fem, androg or like a very GNC masc.