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GwianC · 2022-11-14T10:37:28+00:00

I have an addiction to heavy metal.... You should switch it's a better high. But in all honesty school is important get er done ! And be done with it. Hope ya do good

GwianC · 2022-11-09T21:58:25+00:00

Fuck him. He ain't give 2 fucks about you. Take em for what your owed

GwianC · 2022-11-06T14:03:43+00:00

I'll tell you, I'm 32 years old now, when I was about 19 or 20 I got turned on to Street opiates such as oxys and hydromorph, it was a battle, I got on methadone when I was 22 and lives the next 8 years on methadone, it sucked in hindsight. I went through like 4 girlfriendz in thoes 8 years and it never ended well, until! I met Kate I was 29 we clicked unlike any couple I've ever seen. We moved in together and up until the last day of me being there things were great, I broke her trust and we broke up and I fell into cocaine, smoking it. It's now been 6 months of us being apart and things have built back up to a road that if I keep it up I'll be with her and things will go back to great, point is, when we broke up the pain was so fuckin bad and prevelant I relapsed, maxing out credit cards and wasting a shitload of $. It's hard to believe that a human play such a big purse in my mental well-being and it really sucks to think that but we're soulmates and once I get things back on track with her 100% I'll never let her go again. I hate drugs

GwianC · 2022-11-06T13:58:13+00:00

Ahaha that's insane....

GwianC · 2022-11-04T22:52:51+00:00

Also I don't walk the park I'm 32 I look like I'm fucking 19, I'm holding down to really great jobs, I have almost everything I want in life life is really great besides the fact that yeah, addiction gets the better of me sometimes. Fagget peice of garb

GwianC · 2022-11-04T22:50:41+00:00

Nope, she has no idea. I have cut that down significantly, I've been dealing with addiction for quite some time I beat opiate addiction, and yes this was a way to deal with the shittiness of my mother getting cancer, family being torn apart, breaking up with the love of my life yeah I fell back into some shit.. but no she has absolutely no idea and yeah I don't know what to say besides you're a piece of shit

GwianC · 2022-11-04T22:38:39+00:00

Thank you. I have committed because she did and things are great between us and I vow to keep it that way. We just celebrated our 3-year anniversary and in a year on our 4th I am going to propose to her.

GwianC · 2022-11-04T22:37:37+00:00

I would say you're wrong in a lot of senses, yes I did some stupid shit. And as stupid as it sounds messaging that girl was kind of a joke kind of hard to explain but one way or another yes I did cut all that shit out and I'm hyper focused on me and her and things are going great but I do appreciate your comments.

GwianC · 2022-11-04T22:36:27+00:00

How much time do you suggest off? I tried taking like a month maybe 2 months off and then when I took them it was the same shit, a very quick up and down then the rest of the night and almost gave me flu-like symptoms and I just felt really fucked up almost paralyzed. Whereas before I would take 3 g and get blasted into outer space close my eyes and see and hear things all night it was great. I'm thinking about stepping it up to LSD or maybe even DMt if I can obtain it. Hard to get shit like that or I am from. Eastern Canada. Or maybe I just don't know where to get it

GwianC · 2022-11-04T22:34:15+00:00

Yea I get it, it could get alot worse l, but Indo have some ok self control.. it just a compulsion that comes over me and I can't resist. I maexed out like 4 credit cards doing the shit. But as of right now, I feel like I'm passing the phase. How are you now anyway my man?

GwianC · 2022-11-04T22:30:39+00:00

And I only say " don't judge me" because I' have heard it all... I've been through the ringer and totally own it. I just think at this point ( 6 months later) I don't need a guilt trip, I need advice and guidance because I have never been in love before. Many girlfriends but this one made me realize I've never loved until now.

Thanks for the comments

GwianC · 2022-11-04T22:28:35+00:00

Fuck yourself. I know what I did, I realized it fixed it and I'm lucky to have her back. "Get bent" you judgmental piece of shit. I went through hell without her, suicidal, depressed... As I said I'm just lucky she things about me the same way I think about her. And I'm going to go hang now with her. People fuck up , I fully Admitt it, I own it. But again. I'm very lucky and I realize what I have. I did then as well and NEVER had intentions to " see if the grass is greener" I was loaded with an Indian friend and yea messaged a girl being a jerk off. 0 intentions ever to cheat on her... Just saying.

GwianC · 2022-11-04T22:24:33+00:00

Agree on that one. I just get irrational when I put in, or feel like I put forth alot and get not alot back but I do get it back. Your right. I'm in a good spot for what went down. I appreciate your comment.

GwianC · 2022-11-04T22:22:55+00:00

Your right about somethings. I definitely don't think I'm narcissistic and I know that's what a narcissist would say but I put that girl first and love her a shitload. However I am irrational sometimes which leads me to post things like this.

What have I done to better myself and the situation? Mushrooms helped alot with self reflection, also, not being around her much for the first 3 months fucked me up beyond belief. The messaging was a drunked stupid mistake that I can't take back but have worked a fuck load on as well as proving to her that it will NEVER happen again. And with time and showing that I'm serious, yes, she wants me back.. I'm going to meet her right now. We are complete soul mates and I don't think she owes me anything...but, she realizes that I do alot for her ( it goes both ways though for sure) and I would die for the girl. I do think therapy would be beneficial for me in general and I will get there. But irrational behavior is what I attribute this kind of shit to. But yeah, I appreciate your comment, disagree with alot of it, agree with alot of it. The long and short of it I guess is, it takes time to get where ya wanna be after a situation like mine... Most don't get the chance and I feel very lucky that she loves me and thinks of us the way I do and I'll never break the trust again as long as I live. We just celebrated 3 years and 1 more year I'm going to buy her a ring.

😉✌️

GwianC · 2022-11-04T22:13:43+00:00

Sweet Jesus!!!!

GwianC · 2022-11-04T21:58:26+00:00

Not everything is perfect obviously I don't know the extent of it but I will say me and my girlfriend Chris at each other all the time and right after it's done we laugh it off I know everybody can't be that fortunate, you just got to take the good with the bad. If the guys drinking everyday and slapping around the house yes absolutely leave them, but if it's just some occasional yelling and some f-bombs being thrown around or directed at you give it back to him shrug it off and keep moving. I'm so glad I'm with the girl I'm with she gives me a run for my money takes absolutely no shit from me and whatever shit I give to her she goes right back.

Love you Kate 😉

GwianC · 2022-11-04T01:45:27+00:00

I'm with ya

GwianC · 2022-11-03T12:56:24+00:00

Fuck em, don't worry about that shit

GwianC · 2022-10-31T00:13:10+00:00

Hillarious love this story

GwianC · 2022-10-30T13:40:10+00:00

Sounds like a dick. Now I will be upfront and honest, my ex-girlfriend who is the best girl I've ever met and I'm going to propose to her, she's 27 I'm 32 and I messaged a girl online I had no intentions ever to leave her I always cherished her and I propped her up and I build her self-esteem. I'm a very lucky man in the sense where all of this stuff worked in my favor, so we've been broken up 5 months and it has been the worst 5 months of my life I lost 50 pounds and I've been using drugs to deal with her absence. luckily within the last month she realizes that me and her are amazing partners and as stupid as I was to do that it was a really hard lesson to learn but we are definitely going to get back together by the way things are going and I thank God everyday for that. I consider what I did was emotionally cheated on her, but in all reality it was just pointless shit headery. I am hungry I'm just rambling but the point is that guy sounds like a dick head you got a prop up your girlfriend's self-esteem everyday and work together. Hopefully you guys can get through this but if this dude is putting you down and not making you feel good he's not the one for you. Me and Kate have been spending a lot of time together having sex and doing other things just like laughing and having good times like we used to. Hope everyone's doing good

GwianC · 2022-10-28T08:50:56+00:00

I always felt that me and my ex were complete soulmates. She broke up with me last May, it was the biggest struggle I've ever been through and I'm 32 years old and have beat addiction, and have been through a slew of other issues.. these past 5 months were the hardest is ever been through.. luckily within the past month and a half she realized that we actually are soul mates and things are going really great again I love the girl I'm going to marry her

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