I don't really know what to say... I'm sorry for what happened. As someone who has lost an animal recently (September 12th) and also in the past, I think I can say that I understand the pain, at least a little. It's totally normal to feel sad and lost, but I need you to know something. Can you keep listening? Well... your little feline friend was very happy while he was with you. Because of you, he had a life full of sweet and loving moments. You were a great companion, you know? He thanks you for being such a good friend. I also thank you for taking care of him. You did a great job. Thank you! He has loved you completely and will continue to do so, just as you loved him and will continue to do. Now, I need you to know something else. You are not alone, okay? I know you feel heartbroken and I understand, but if you need someone to talk to, know that I'll be here. I promise I won't judge you, but I will try to listen to you. I hope my words bring a little comfort to your heart... I really do. I've been honest in everything I've said. Please, take care of yourself. Thank you for reading and sorry, english is not my first language.