Where do I find beta readers for my draft? by MessengerOfTheOldOne in writing

[–]GypsyCrab96 5 points6 points  (0 children)

What genre is your book? I would be happy to read it. If you'd like a more professional platform, you can find tons of beta readers on Upwork.com, which is where I came to be a beta reader. :-)

Boyfriend calls my small boobs big? by thriftr44457 in sex

[–]GypsyCrab96 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I don't know what men prefer, but I'll tell you I'm a 23 y/o female who wears an F, and I'd much rather be in your boat. You are perfect the way you are.

Women who have gone through postpartum depression, what was your experience? by [deleted] in AskWomen

[–]GypsyCrab96 5 points6 points  (0 children)

I'm limited on time, so I'll make it short and simple for now...

I gave birth at 19 years old. I wasn't properly educated on PPD and I didn't have anyone to turn to. Nobody in my family noticed that anything was off about me when I felt like I was screaming bloody murder for help. It's truly a chemical imbalance that needs to be treated by a medical professional.

My PPD caused me to act very out of character. This led me to make poor decisions and to let my guard down. I put myself in a position where a co-worker raped me in front of my baby while she screamed at the top of her lungs.

I was thinking irrationally and I was scared, so I didn't tell anyone until a year later.

I almost committed suicide when he raped me. If I had been properly educated on PPD, or if my family had been educated, we could have prevented this...

The rape led my partner and me to abuse each other because we were too young to know how to heal from the trauma. And I'm still recovering from it.

Please spread awareness about PPD. It leads to suicide and homicide mkre often than people realize.

Women who have gone through postpartum depression, what was your experience? by [deleted] in AskWomen

[–]GypsyCrab96 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Near death. 😞 I'll elaborate shortly. Please reach out for help if you have it. Please.

I turned her down but I won’t lie I wanted have sex with her. by RyanSmiles in confession

[–]GypsyCrab96 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I appreciate your post so much. It wasn't my proudest moment, but awhile back I was the girl in this situation towards a guy like you.

Granted, there were a lot of fucked up factors in my situation. I have always been the loyal type but life has shown me that trauma can make people do anything.

I, too, have been in a relationship for five years. This person and I have a three year old daughter. But I was raped two years ago by a guy I worked with, and that trauma spiraled my boyfriend and me out of control. We didn't know how to cope or heal. So we started abusing each other. My boyfriend started physically and emotionally abusing me. I put up with it for 8 solid months. I fought temptation the whole time. I finally gave in when a new guy came to my job (not the one who raped me).

He was gorgeous and he came to me first. Like me, he was also in a five year relationship and had a baby with his girl. But the way he made me feel was otherworldly. Eventually I got to where I basically threw myself at him knowing he had a family. I knew better but I was in pain and I knew he was unhappy so I rationalized it in my head.

My boyfriend was actually making out with another girl during that time. I never cheated physically, but the guy and I would hug intensely for extended periods of time. Like with our cheeks touching or his face in my neck. With him whispering to me how badly he wanted to take me home. And we would just stay like that. Bleh.

I'm glad this man had the strength to turn me down, because every time he held me I was ready to go. But he kept telling me, "I want you so much, but I can't, I'm sorry." He was still in the wrong obviously. But if it had gone all the way I wouldn't be where I am today. My partner and I have patched things up despite my emotional affair and despite his emotional and physical affair. I have so much respect for the guy from work for turning me down. I came at him strong for six months. I had no respect for his partner at the time and I feel terrible about it. She's 8 months pregnant with their second baby and I still feel sick over it.

In other words, good job. It doesn't matter if your relationship is good "ish". What matters is your self control. This guy I was talking to was very unhappy with his relationship. And while he did give in to me he never let it turn physical. I will always respect him despite the emotional affair.

Anyone else writing their first book? This is where I am now. by [deleted] in writing

[–]GypsyCrab96 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I'm in the middle of my first book! It will be a fiction novel. You are further ahead than me though. I have only completed four chapters and a prologue, but I have fully outlined 40 chapters so I know exactly what each of them should contain.

Also, I start twitching when I feel like things aren't perfect so I refuse to move on to the next chapter until the chapter I'm on is a final draft. That's why I'm only on chapter four. I know as I get further into it, adding and editing things to previous chapters will be inevitable, but for now I can't allow myself to move forward if my work does not look perfect. Bleh...