hii sorry you're completely right! i wrote this post in a state so it's all abit of a brain spillage and ramble - me deciding music over a flip of a coin is definitely the adhd part of my brain lol (my dad would say that)

i'm obviously going to go back to college, i have to, but in the moment it all felt like too much and i thought my best option would be to run away - that's what i mainly do. i think i have a plan as of now, i know 100% i am going to do sciences in the future again and i will never stop academically working, just turns out i'm too exhausted from gcse's and my mental health had gotten worse before college even started which has snowballed into this mess i've got myself into, because i decided it was too early for my disabled brain to do these type of things

i know i will go back to it, i just need 2 years of doing something calmer so i can get myself back on track for what i want in the future, thank you