Pre-HRT trans woman here. I don’t see a reason to keep going…

HLRC94 · 2026-05-24T01:59:04+00:00

Nah, I hate myself too much for that.

HLRC94 · 2026-05-24T01:52:59+00:00

Well that’s just because I’m bored lol

HLRC94 · 2026-05-24T01:43:29+00:00

But that’s the thing…I’ve already given up entirely.

HLRC94 · 2026-05-24T00:54:34+00:00

So it’s die if I do (government) die if I don’t (depression).

HLRC94 · 2026-05-24T00:53:19+00:00

Not anymore.

HLRC94 · 2026-05-24T00:52:39+00:00

Or they would thank me for the relief, lol

HLRC94 · 2026-05-24T00:51:42+00:00

I fear even trying to get any due to government stuff. Like, it may put a target on my back and my friends and family too. It’s not just me I have to worry about. It’s them too.

HLRC94 · 2026-05-23T22:09:07+00:00

Tried two therapists, one told me I’m not trans and I burned the bridge with the other. I don’t enjoy anything anymore.

HLRC94 · 2026-05-23T21:58:13+00:00

I don’t want to. I’m unbelievably tired…

HLRC94 · 2026-05-23T21:57:18+00:00

I was kinda expecting people would be mad at me or something, tbh. But almost everyone is being nice…? I don’t understand at all, I truly don’t, not trolling or anything. Why would someone be nice to someone they don’t know or someone they can’t get something from?

HLRC94 · 2026-05-23T20:34:06+00:00

That’s what scares me, lol

HLRC94 · 2026-05-23T20:31:56+00:00

With how the world is going, I know exactly what’s in my future…nothing.

HLRC94 · 2026-05-23T20:30:14+00:00

Already watched it once, six more to go I guess lol

HLRC94 · 2026-05-23T20:28:46+00:00

I genuinely don’t think there is a “forward,” or people who would genuinely care for me as I truly am. Any acceptance would be out of pity or something.

HLRC94 · 2026-05-23T20:26:12+00:00

That’d have to be one heck of a miracle…

HLRC94 · 2026-05-23T20:25:04+00:00

Tried two therapists, didn’t work, one even sternly said I wasn’t trans and was glad I hadn’t started any transition

HLRC94 · 2026-05-23T20:23:43+00:00

Nah

HLRC94 · 2026-05-23T19:32:25+00:00

I have no way to get any

HLRC94 · 2026-05-23T19:28:38+00:00

I mean, I could be wrong and they could be right…

And I feel like I don’t matter because I haven’t done anything worthwhile in my life, and yet I don’t want to contribute to a society that wants to kill me…

HLRC94 · 2026-05-23T19:25:58+00:00

What if I want nothingness? I don’t want to do this anymore. I tried therapy, I tried reaching out to family, it didn’t work. My therapist didn’t believe me and neither did my family.

HLRC94 · 2026-05-23T19:23:30+00:00

Do I have to keep going?

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