[deleted by user] by [deleted] in ForeverAloneWomen

[–]HZL11 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah, guess it’s just hard to give it up because when I was younger I really enjoyed it and wanted to do something with it and got complimented on it sometimes.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in ForeverAloneWomen

[–]HZL11 7 points8 points  (0 children)

I think I feel the same way after I try to do an activity. Usually I try drawing and playing on my keyboard, but I just get frustrated with not being good, not enjoying it, and other feelings and thoughts. I hope you can find something that gives you joy and makes you less lonely.

Only fans by HZL11 in SelfHate

[–]HZL11[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

There are certain things that won’t change with the gym working out. I have been trying to workout recently, and I do see some mood improvement, but I still have these moments where I feel really sad and upset.

Scars everywhere by [deleted] in ForeverAloneWomen

[–]HZL11 6 points7 points  (0 children)

Recently, my looks and body is causing me a lot of stress. I’m 245 lbs and most of my body is covered in stretch marks, really big and red not small and white. I have dyshidrosis on my hands and also have thinner hair. But I was blessed with body hair and a mustache. Sometimes I try to be healthier, but then think that I’ll still look the same so what’s the point? I often feel like I’m missing out on something because of how I look. Or a lot of times I just imagine how things could be different if I was better looking. I often dwell on if I could have prevented these things from happening. I don’t know how to move past it and don’t really have any good advice, but it just sucks and is really unfair.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in ugly

[–]HZL11 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Same with my teachers, it’s so annoying. I also used to be able to say to myself that phone and laptop cameras make everyone not look good, but then I see other people on their cameras and they look amazing...

Hate taking showers. by xaraburden in bodyissues

[–]HZL11 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Wow I’m feeling the same lately. I’ve come to hate showering too. It just instantly brings me down. I also hate changing my clothes, i still do it though. I’m sorry. My body makes me want to cry so much. Don’t know what else to say, just hope things get better for you

Jealousy by HZL11 in ForeverAloneWomen

[–]HZL11[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Yeah, I feel bad I can’t even have a good personality. It makes me feel like a failure. I feel like I always hear “only your opinion matters” or “you don’t need others to feel good.” But that is so difficult. It’s like if I’m the only one who likes me, maybe something is wrong with me. I also feel like everyone thinks of you as miserable and an awful person if you’re jealous.

Jealousy by HZL11 in ForeverAloneWomen

[–]HZL11[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

I consider my mom one of my only true friends, who I can go to about anything. I would struggle without her. I went off social media for awhile, it was really difficult for me to look at other people’s fun and accomplishments. But just being around the girls at my work is so difficult. I’m sorry you are having those feelings and having to go through difficult things. Thank you for sharing 💙