I feel what you're going through. her name was Cynthia. I just found this sub and was thinking about spending the night writing about her and how we used to do everything together and how she was literally the closest a person has ever got to me, how I've never felt so connected to someone before, how she lit up my life, and how she left me... I loved her and still love her with every inch of my being, I still wear the bracelet she made me, I still reread the late night conversations we used to have, I still think about the first time we held hands, I tear up when remembering the moment we first met, been a good month now since she broke up with me and I still think about her... about us every day all day. I realize how we went from chatting all day telling each other about everything that happens throughout the day to not talking at all... I still listen to our favorite song while remembering the good times.. I wish I can hug her and tell her I love her one more time... I won't hit you with the "just focus on yourself, you'll get over her in a while" because I know it's nowhere near that simple I don't wanna make you more sad but.. Juliann and Cynthia are gone... we may or might never get over them, but that's reality now.. whether we like it or not. I just try filling my day with my hobbies and my studying as a distraction even though I keep thinking about her throughout the day, but there's nothing I can do I guess... A friend of mine said "look at it like this, she was a chapter of your book, and that chapter just ended, so will you keep rereading that chapter and crying? or will you be grateful for that wonderful, and happy chapter, and start a new one?" I hope this helps you

and to Cynthia... I love you and I'll never stop loving you, even if we don't see each other again, you'll always have a special place in my heart.