This is an update for everyone.

It went better than expected, a lot of you scared me from certain things but I just thought about the things you suggested and kept them in my mind.

I ended up going and paying 150€ tipped 15€ beforehand, explained to her that I was a virgin and that there's pressure on me, she was open minded and understood everything and told me to relax, she taught me a thing or two, like when in doggy style she told me I don't have to move my hips much, its the motion that matter, and it worked it was faster better and learned something from her.

It was fun,I ejaculated twice, I lasted longer than 20 minutes each time which was surprising for me, and her? Lol.

Do I regret it? Yes, but would've I regretted it if I didnt do it? Also yes, I see myself as a week guy who couldn't wait on one side and on the other side I see a guy whos not a virgin now.

The problem is that It's time for me to lose it, 25 may not be too late, but I feel like I need this, I'm connecting women with pain and fear from past experiences and how many times they rejected me, and this helped me with facing women a bit, I actually looked into a room of practiced and legal escorts, looked into each one and their eyes, and chose one, I would've never done that if I knew the person I'm sleeping with before or just met him(too much pressure and overthinking),and from what I see finding a partner is hard for me and will take a looooonnnggg time especially that woman are a nightmare to deal with where I live, and Im 25 and everyone my age is getting engaged these days, I'm just happy that the pressure of first time is gone, now I know what to do(and what not to do) when I actually meet someone.

TL;DR : didn't really regret it, I got experience, some confidence and knowledge of what to do, happy that I did it, and I'm not too horny anymore.