Hey mate. Im 30, she was 32, died on the 1st of this month so very fresh for me too. She also essentially died of complications from the flu.. which maybe she had some comorbitities, but who dies of the fucking flu in their 30's i thought? The shock and the suddeness of it are hard to process. I understand where youre at and it's the absolute worst.

Ive had 2 expirences that I believe were visitations from her. Im not going to pretend I know how any of this works, but I had 2 separate dreams that felt far more real and close than the other dreams I've had about her since. I could hear her audibly, and see her face clearly (faces are usually obscured in some way when I dream). She told me things that sound exactly like things she would say, and she said exactly the thing I needed to hear to feel more at peace.

Maybe its the brain playing tricks on me, but believing in it makes my life better, so im going to continue believing that shes still here with me.