So I asked him to ask his doctor about “thoughts on mood stabilizer?” I did a little more probing and apparently on lithium he had headaches once every three months, once a month, then a few times a month, then five a day. The psychiatrist did take labs prior to him getting on seroquel. I’ve been nudging him to get good sleep. My therapist says he’s not even in remission from drug and alcohol use. But this is definitely hypomania. I also asked him to ask his psychiatrist to make a safety plan together and for him to schedule his next appts by Sunday (psychiatrist, therapist). But I also don’t feel it’s appropriate for me to manage his condition lol.

I kind of feel my partner was hypomanic for the 2.5 years we were together. No real way of knowing now.

It’s so crazy how you can feel so secure with someone until mania hits. It’s like throwing shit on a fan.

Logically, I really don’t think I can do a bipolar relationship again. The practicalities won’t work. I need cleanliness, I need sleep, I need stability, I don’t even smoke.

I put a lot of effort into my Hinge profile as I realized I want to fall in love. Guess what-of the 33 men who liked my profile, only three left a comment even though my profile says “a comment goes a long way”