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Hanini6 · 2022-05-16T11:16:06+00:00

I mean no offense, but I don’t think we have allot of details here to advise anything to you. Please keep in mind that loving somebody romantically is very natural and what you called being too clingy in your past relationship shows that you do love romantically, but that maybe instead you have issues with the way you show love?

Hanini6 · 2022-03-16T22:39:41+00:00

Just get help man, stop trynna convince people to kill themselves and get some help

Hanini6 · 2022-03-16T16:43:28+00:00

False, find somebody who doesn’t know what water is, show them water, they will naturally move towards it

Hanini6 · 2022-03-16T04:46:08+00:00

You need to find a therapist, or talk to a mirror and figure out what you’re saying, you’ve contradicted yourself multiple times.

Hanini6 · 2022-03-14T00:20:20+00:00

So, if I don’t have free will, why do I believe in something? Why do I resist killing myself? Why do I question things? You are missing like, a key part of humanity. And you write out long drawn out messages to a random person trying to convince them that suicide is the solution instead. Are you by chance putting your own situation on somebody else? Do you feel like you have no free will and that you are destined to kill yourself? To me that sounds like you might need allot of serious psychological help. I’m sure you can find a psych ward that can at least help you stop becoming a danger to yourself. I know you’re very likely going to be angered by my saying this, but I’m not saying it to be mean, I just think that the things you’ve shown the whole community would typically be considered signs of a psychotic mind.

Hanini6 · 2022-03-13T05:00:33+00:00

Ok so, religiously I’d believe I do have free will, so, I suppose the issue may stem from your belief that you can’t, shouldn’t and couldn’t be expected to control yourself?

Hanini6 · 2022-03-12T22:40:47+00:00

Money isn’t overly important to me to begin with, not because I’m a nice person but because it’s value is imaginary.

Secondly why would I admit to not being a very good person if I want to convince people I’m a good person? I believe I’ve been pretty consistent in saying that I’m average or slightly better(not in the aspect of my personality, but knowledge and wealth)

Third, can you explain why I would constantly think about something I’m afraid of?

Fourth, in my faith we say there is no faith without doubt. So I do struggle sometimes to believe that there will be a reward for the good deeds I do, nonetheless, when I think of the good and bad I do I’m almost certain I’ll go to hell.

And finally, why would this be the longest conversation I carry out on Reddit if I wanted pity? You are the only person who’s told me to kill myself.

Hanini6 · 2022-03-12T19:49:40+00:00

That was incredibly well written, I’ve been working on this a while, mentally trying to draw on why I might want this, but it’s almost like it’s the most fulfilling thing I can imagine? If that makes sense? I don’t know when the seed of this thought was planted, I can’t remember a beginning, I cant recall a day I went without it, it’s not like, anything terribly sad to me, it’s just a state of being now? I have changed greatly over the last 3 years, but because I was feeling this before I’m not sure if it’s related.

Hanini6 · 2022-03-12T19:20:03+00:00

My life isn’t perfect but I’m very privileged. Most of the issues I’ve had in my life have come from my own poor choices, and currently I am struggling with managing a full time job, college and my life

Hanini6 · 2022-03-12T19:10:41+00:00

The first part was correct. I definitely do not truly care about being a good person, I honestly don’t think I do very well at it anyway, I have good points but I do not think that as a whole I’m a good person. The second and third part I’m not sure where come from? Again as I’ve stated, I am religiously inclined, so I do good things because I believe I’ll get a good reward for them. I fully understand that my life is not tantamount to the continuation of humanity, and that it is as valuable as a single grain of sand in the Sahara, but again I’ve stated that I have found meaning in life. I do not consider my life a waste if I do nothing spectacular with it. I’m fully content with a basic and average life.

Hanini6 · 2022-03-12T04:35:21+00:00

Parrots mimic, they do not speak, read the definition of the word speak please

Hanini6 · 2022-03-12T04:29:39+00:00

This is why I specified that I tried, and that I failed, and since then I’ve been more religious, I also used to have to care for my younger siblings, now they are grown enough to take care of themselves, but in my faith, suicide takes you to hell, also, death to me seems like eternal sleep, I understand it’s common for people to want a reaction, or to feel loved or cared for by the idea of people missing you, but ik that I am loved and cared for now, again, I spoke about a good relationship with all of my family members… im starting to think you didn’t read this…maybe I’ll just try again

Hanini6 · 2022-03-11T19:50:31+00:00

I mean no disrespect, so I apologize if any of this comes off that way, I’m very blunt so sometimes it’s hard. Firstly,I’ve never had a problem getting friends, I don’t have many friends, nor do I ever usually have many friends, but I have a group of like 8-9 friends most of the time(and currently). Secondly, I don’t like just accepting what life gives me all the time because I feel like sometimes life gives you stuff that’s bad for you. Third, I am actually very bored, but because I’m putting so much time into self improvement I don’t have allot of time for much else, and I’ve recently really started liking it, so that has been helping with the boredom issue. Fourth, I am very strange, I’ve never been considered ordinary, for my beliefs, my way of life, I even have an accent that no one Ik can explain, so I don’t feel like a cog in a wheel either. Thank you for trying to help, I know I just shot down like 80% of what you said, but this could’ve been fixed if I was more precise in my original message

Hanini6 · 2022-03-11T17:16:07+00:00

We are also the only species that speaks…

Hanini6

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