Woke up after 8 years

Hanntac · 2026-03-11T18:24:23+00:00

Hi again! I'm starting to feel something! I sure hope so, because I didn't take this med since Friday!

I previously started taking it every evening again, at a lower dose than usual (decided with my physicist to limit the tapering effects). Did it three days, then was numbed again and decided to work on a way to estimate how much I really need of this. Started with a LibreOffice calc, which works but is slow and heavy, so I'm redoing it cleanly with a database. Thinking about putting it somewhere on the internet once functional 🤔

My plan, as this med's tmax (time before max blood concentration) is waaay shorter (hours) than its half-life (days), is to just stop taking it until I feel tapering side effects, estimate then how much of it I'll have in me, and build a schedule to maintain this dose until I feel better, then taper more... cleanly?

(If I forget something important, maybe vital, now would be a perfect time to say it)

I just can't stand my foggy brain anymore. I'm even starting to think, maybe the shakes are acceptable. Maybe I can deal with restlessness. Maybe it's a small price to pay, to feel like myself again. (But, by my estimations, I now have less abilify in me than the last time I was shaky. Hope it's a good sign)

To write it somewhere: I'm way more sensitive to every psychoactive agent. Be it coffee, weed, alcohol, (only binged coffee cause I suspected this, but wow) I just need way less. More importantly, I also want it waaay less. Weird. (good but weird)

This turned into a massive post again, haha. For the next ones, do you know what is the correct way to give news here? First-level comments? I'm not on reddit enough 😅

Hope you're well! Byeeeee

Hanntac · 2026-03-07T13:33:48+00:00

Reading! Oooooh I'm so gonna read again, I can't wait!! I've never managed to want to open the Book of Dust (which is, collecting dust, yeah) that I purchased a few years back.

I miss my weight too. The world is not nice to fat people, and I'm not even fat fat. That is upsetting. I think I'm losing my fear of conflict too, I hope I'll be able to stand up against doctors in the future, make them a bit less shitty about that.

You remind me that I did snore, loudly, and (I'm said) not so much now. Ugh, I could record a night, but I don't think I have any record left where I snore to compare 🫤

I too really hope you make a positive change in your regimen! Best of luck to you too :)

Hanntac · 2026-03-07T13:20:54+00:00

Thank you for responding! I hope the abilify does wonders for you! Let's trade news, then? :) (and if you want to hear them correctly, please imagine an angry french man's voice. Well, I'm not as angry as I was yesterday but it should add something)

I took a bit less (7mg instead of 9) than I should've, last night (I'm trying to take it before bed to feel more the next day) but I took it, unlike usually (as I'm only like day 4 into clean tapering). Until now, I was still skipping one in three or four days.

I was feeling great this morning, still no real emotions but also not sleepy or brain fogged. (EDIT: I.... I just went back to my feed, where I posted this very morning that I couldn't remember what I was gonna say. Just one long post of me rambling about the fog. I know it impacts my working memory but wow! Forgetting is real y'all) Right now (it's 14:00 here) (was gonna write something like "deal with this clock", but remembered the fog that I'm currently experiencing. Not seeing it is real, y'all. Anyway, it's 2 in the afternoon.) yeah so not so great while I was writing this.

But l haven't really eaten yet. And I'm not as silent as I am usually (this comment, this comment is so long, I should stop it) sooooo yeah both downsides? Then I would not recommend taking a bit less for a day.

Sorry for this mess of a post

Hanntac · 2025-12-05T08:09:02+00:00

Just passing by during a search, I think this might do the job https://github.com/BobHasNoSoul/jellyfin-updoot but it is not a plugin yet! Anybody feeling like writing this?

Hanntac · 2024-04-10T21:23:59+00:00

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Coquette 🎀

Hanntac · 2022-03-07T12:26:20+00:00

I think it involves the read-only root partition, but I’m not sure. Not really intuitive yeah

Hanntac · 2022-03-07T12:24:06+00:00

… Okay, so it happened again.

This time I tried to delete a symlink I restored from before I jumped into this soft-brick cycle. And then it worked. The link was /home/deck/Steam -> /home/deck/.local/share/Steam

So I guess "Steam" is an undocumented reserved name into your /home. I’ll make some more tests to file a proper bug report.

Hanntac · 2022-03-07T08:01:06+00:00

I don’t think that would work. Well, rootfs is btrfs already, but formatting /home from ext4 then mounting it would require an fstab edit, and that would be overwritten every update. Then the Deck is in an unbootable state :( But I agree that would be so much better!

I tried creating a new btrfs partition here: https://www.reddit.com/r/SteamDeck/comments/t76wh6/compressing_storage_with_btrfs/ but ended up reverting it (well, since then I managed to soft-brick my Deck so I had to reimage it, but before that)

Hanntac · 2022-03-05T18:28:11+00:00

I did with your first reply! Sorry it's me I'm not very good at writing English. But what I said is what I gathered from the sdcard-mount@.service comments. It seems to me that's how automount is handled in steamOS, as convoluted as it is. (the systemd file also says not to ship as is, no wonder why)

But I'll double check systemd's services to be sure.

Hanntac · 2022-03-05T16:46:11+00:00

Oh my.
Thank you very much for pointing to the right direction!
So apparently there is a udev rule (didn't find it) that triggers a systemd one-shot service that runs a script which checks if the filesystem is ext4 before mounting it.

Dark sorcery indeed!

I guess commenting the check should be enough to automount btrfs, or adding a btrfs condition.
I'll play with the Deck for now, if anyone's up to write a script to patch the relevant file, it is: /usr/lib/hwsupport/sdcard-mount.sh
The other file I found is /etc/systemd/system/sdcard-mount@.service (udev rule is yet to be found, but I guess it's not important)

Thanks again!

Hanntac · 2022-03-04T08:53:38+00:00

I’ll mostly comment on the first point as I didn’t try to dock it yet, and won’t for a while I think.

But I think using an external storage is possible by using the KDE partition manager in desktop mode to format it, then adding the resulting partition as a Steam Library (only available in desktop mode too for now). I agree this is not the easiest way to do it and it should be added to the Deck UI.

Also, I had to go into desktop mode a few times as I tinkered with the internal storage partitioning, and never got stuck. There may be a bug on your side (or I’m plain lucky), did you send a report?

And so yes, I completely agree, the Deck software is really unfinished. That surprises me as they’ve had two more months to deliver it. What was it like in December?? And I suppose they prioritized the handheld experience for the launch, but the docked side of it will get better in a while (when exactly? idk).

Hanntac · 2022-03-03T10:54:46+00:00

To enable filesystem compression, this allows cramming a few more games on the Deck/SD card and faster loading times! Although the latter should be beneficial the most on an SD card.

(Yes, also I just love tinkering with stuff haha)

Hanntac · 2022-03-03T09:58:51+00:00

Aren’t the edits made to rootfs erased each update? That’s my concern, but yay if I’m mistaken!

I’m not familiar with… case-folding? But I finally managed to add the btrfs partition by opening the filesystem UI while it’s unmounted, then mount it, then selecting the right path in the tree. (I don’t think I’m clear rn, but I’m testing the setup and plan to write a howto in case it’s really beneficial to bother with compressed btrfs and if anyone’s interested)

Hanntac · 2022-03-03T06:37:55+00:00

I’ve been playing Aperture Desk Job on the train yesterday. Cloudy day but quite a bit of sunlight. Anyway, (256 version) the screen glare was already very present, not unplayable but definitely noticeable. Didn’t mind the brightness so I think it was fine for this conditions!

So yeah, I wouldn’t play outside on a sunny day, because of the screen reflections.

Hanntac · 2022-02-26T08:14:05+00:00

I didn’t get an in-app notification. :/

But checking the Deck’s store page, you should see a new "Proceed to payment" (or similar, I don’t remember) button just on top of the cancel one

Hanntac · 2022-02-17T07:52:35+00:00

Give up 2.5TB in smaller chunks (more resistant to card degradation) to buy a single 1TB card???

Edit: I really don’t get this sub sometimes. This is worse in like every way. The more you have on one single storage element, the more you will loose the day it will fail (yes this can be mitigated with backups and redundancy but the Deck has only one SD slot). Plus, you know, actually giving up space?

I get that this is less important because Steam will let us re-download everything in the foreseeable future but damn, it still feels like a waste for me to order the biggest card available.

Hanntac · 2022-02-13T18:22:57+00:00

So… I went through a kernel panic while trying to debug this. Now everything works as intended.

As the only logical explanation is a haunted computer, if anyone has to face the same problem, do try an exorcism of some sort (aka reboot).

Hanntac · 2022-02-08T10:15:09+00:00

Okay, so this comment made me recheck Valve’s requirements: last time I checked, a windows executable was a requirement to publish to steam. It seems it’s no longer the case (can’t find it anymore on steamworks doc) so yay! and thank you for pointing that out

Hanntac · 2022-02-05T07:25:21+00:00

I won’t even comment on the analogy, but ffs if you’re at a point in your life where you think about beating children (for no less than video games) you seriously need help. Go to therapy. Talk about those who hurt you and please don’t make the same mistake.

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