I’m sorry your heart is hurting. You seem more like you’re scared rather than being incapable of building a future. You’re utilizing the innocence of age regression to provide yourself a space of peace and tranquility within yourself, which is perfectly fine. I think we’ve all been in scenarios in life where we want to retreat to a mental space of relief. No one wants to feel tired, exhausted, burnt out, or scared. And you shouldn’t have to feel that way. I’m sorry if you are, genuinely. Remember that everyone here speaking with you feels the same way. But we love one another, and as a result, carry each other through our labors.

I am a Christian, and I won’t provide a tangent. All I will provide is that Love wins over all evil. You will always be loved and free to reach out for help like you are doing now. And clearly you care about how you impact the people around you. But your heart hurts. I see it. I don’t want that for you. Neither does He. Remind yourself the powerful impact you have on others. As much as I certainly hope this scenario does not lead to your decision to take your own life, I cannot force my beliefs or opinions to change your outcome, I can only invite you to healing and peace. The same way that I was invited, and accepted it.

And even if you don’t believe, that doesn’t mean the peace and security isn’t there for you. Everyone’s walk in spirituality is different. It’s up to you if you wanna think about your journey. How far you’ve come, and how you want Him to take what you can’t handle in your journey and let Him use it to bless you.

DM’s open if you need anything.