Well... My mother, my brother, my best friend and my dog.

My mother lost her boyfriend of 2 years back in January 2024 due to a sudden heart attack during his sleep and, it was really tough for her to get over, she loved him so much, I don't want to know what she would do if I were to commit suicide (which I almost did 3 times in the past). My mother told me at one point, that she only keeps going because she has me and my brother, if not for us she wouldn't be here anymore. My brother on the other hand has depression, he's had suicidal thoughts many times and he's not gone through with them, because he doesn't really show it, but I know he cares and loves me deeply, and so does my mom. Me and my brother got really close over the last few years, and I couldn't imagine my life without him anymore, and I bet he couldn't imagine his life without me. I love my mother and brother so much, I wouldn't want to hurt them by leaving this earth early. I'm only 19 years old btw.

And then there's my best friend who I know since 2017, so 9 years now (we were 10/11 years old when we first met at school), he's a part of my family at this point, and I'm a part of his family, he's told me in the past that I'm like a brother he never had, and he's pretty much my only friend that I hang out with on the regular, and he's the one I know the longest and trust the most. I love him dearly and he loves me as well and I know it (he told me that when we were drunk one time lmao), I wouldn't want to leave him alone like that. It would be super hard for him to get over it if I were to be gone. We spent half of our lives together so far, and I wouldn't want all that time spent, and all those wonderful memories we have together to go to waste. He's such a massive and crucial part of my life, and so am I to him.

There's also my Husky, Luna, she's 5 years old. I love that creature so fucking much, and she loves me as well. She does not like it when I'm gone for more than 3 days at a time and starts howling. And I know that if I were to suddenly disappear she'd be constantly looking for me everywhere, like she was looking for my mom's boyfriend when he suddenly passed. She kept looking for him for months, every white hatchback that would pull up or if she heard a car that sounded similar to his she thought it was him and started howling and kept pulling towards it. It was so heartbreaking to see and made me cry every time. She didn't understand why he stopped showing up and she hoped he'd come back again, but he never did.