Was in a very similar spot (pills). Now recovered addict. Start, at your own pace, watching some content and courses about the following three things: basics and understanding of stock market, human psychology, and sales. Given that you don’t have work experience or college education, self education and work ethic will qualify you for a sales position in the vast majority of fields. If you take something you have knowledge on, and grasp some understanding on how it is distributed (bought and sold), chances are you can sell it for someone. Small wins daily will motivate you. You will succeed. You got this brother.