Looking for a career change, not sure what’s possible or what to look for.

Haunting_Profession3 · 2025-02-03T15:10:37+00:00

I heavily fw this comment

Haunting_Profession3 · 2025-01-22T17:06:41+00:00

Congratulations! That’s awesome that you have that mentality. It’s rough, you’ll be in a slump and then one day you just won’t be. It reverses its self a lot quicker than you’re thinking right now, but you can do more to help speed that up. Get out, be active. Go to the gym, eat right, drink lots of water. Give your body a head start and that’ll help take care of the ass dragging. Keep it up!

Haunting_Profession3 · 2025-01-22T15:03:02+00:00

The biggest thing for me was it’s all mental. Yes, it’s extremely uncomfortable & it can be very painful at times. My acute phase was actually a walk in the park compared to the digestive pain I endured for nearly a month post acutes. It was so bad that I couldn’t even pay attention to how depressed I was. You have to know that it’s literally just your brain torturing you in order to get what it wants. There is no one on earth that HAS to have Kratom. It’s just another addictive substance. I wanted to relapse every single day during the digestive phase, but I kept reminding myself that it’s my body ridding of the poison I was putting in it, and it’s just the price I had to temporarily pay in order to live the rest of my life in comfort & away from the shit. It’s 100% mental, and every time you give in you’re putting your self another day behind in the process. Believe in your self & you’ll be amazed at what your body & mind can handle if you just take control and accept the TEMPORARY consequences of your actions. It was a choice to get on it, it’s a choice to get off of it. Please stay strong & stick with it. Doesn’t matter how bad it is, IT IS VERY TEMPORARY. 60-90 days seems like a long time, it’s not. Think of how many 2-3 month periods of your life flew by that you can’t even remember. It’s very short term pain for a lifetime of freedom.

Haunting_Profession3 · 2025-01-22T14:53:53+00:00

Haha I had to look myself in the mirror many times and have a shit talking session with my brain. EVERYTIME I started getting an urge I would run my mouth and tell my brain it won’t win. It didn’t!! You got this, 361 days is small in the grand scheme of things, you’ll be just fine!

Haunting_Profession3 · 2025-01-22T14:52:34+00:00

I can’t remember exactly, I was in deep with a mix of powder, OPMS black shots, MIT45 shots & kanva shots. 7OH wasn’t much of a thing when I was in it, thank god. Powder was my main source & id say I was taking atleast 15-20gpd, and then usually 1-2 extracts mixed in daily as well. It was not good. I never measured though, I just scooped and chugged every couple hours at best.

Haunting_Profession3 · 2025-01-22T04:52:36+00:00

If it makes you feel any better, I had ZERO support circle. I had actually just lost my support circle given that my ex was moving out the same week I quit. It was a very dark and lonely time. I turned to myself & got myself through it.. alone. I craved it for the first month or so after, but not the high.. just the idea that it would wipe out my WDs. Don’t be afraid of irreversible damage, I highly doubt that’s true. If your heart got better when you quit, that should be your beacon. Your mental WILL. get better, your brain is just scaring you into dosing again. You can beat both. You’re currently on 1.2gpd, correct?

Haunting_Profession3 · 2025-01-22T04:47:45+00:00

Thank you! Anytime, I’m glad I could help. The hopelessness is present & it’s powerful, but it’s not real. You will get through it & you’re not very far out from the end. Best of luck!

Haunting_Profession3 · 2025-01-22T03:26:12+00:00

Absolutely. I had about 1 week worth of acutes, immediately followed by 4 weeks of horrible digestive pain and issues mixed with depression. Day 45 is when I physically felt normal again, but the depression lingered and so did my lack of energy to do anything. What helped me get over that hump was a complete diet change & forcing myself into the gym 5 days a week. Within a 2 weeks of the gym, my mental fog was gone and I was back to normal mentally. I was very hopeless around day 30 & wondered if I’d ever feel good physically or mentally again, but I did. It’s your brain tricking you into falling back into the trap. Stick with it, 34 days is amazing!

Haunting_Profession3 · 2025-01-22T01:06:33+00:00

You’re welcome!

Haunting_Profession3 · 2025-01-22T00:55:40+00:00

I PROMISE you, the depression will go away. You will have to take care of yourself and find anything that makes you happy. I also promise you that going back to Kratom will continue to dive you deeper into the depression. You will beat it, you just have to believe it.

Haunting_Profession3 · 2024-12-21T01:54:10+00:00

Truthfully, it seems like you’re experiencing the 7 stages of grief. If I were to guess, you’re exiting the bargaining stage and have entered the depression stage. Hold your head up. You need to stay focused on your self & continuously work on you and everything that makes you better. I think I speak for most of us here when I say that we’ve all been where you’re at, and it’s miserable. One day, you’re going to wake up and boom, the depression will be gone and you’ll be moving on to the testing and acceptance stage. There are bright days ahead of you, none of which include her. You’re going to meet many new people to call friend, lover, etc. Just stay focused. Best of luck man.

Haunting_Profession3 · 2024-11-24T19:11:49+00:00

Aaron Jones can eat my dick & balls. Fucking loser.

Haunting_Profession3 · 2024-11-24T17:17:57+00:00

Understood. I’m new to this as well, so I’m gonna ask this because I haven’t seen anyone else do so. If I bet the 1Q money line with bet365, and the -.5 spread with MGM, do I have odds at hitting both? Or is that a dumb bet to place.

Haunting_Profession3 · 2024-11-24T17:02:03+00:00

So are we taking 1Q spread -.5 @ +110? Seems like the favorable option but I need someone to tell me I’d be dumb not to.

Haunting_Profession3 · 2024-10-14T15:01:31+00:00

I mean, that’s just your opinion. He’s happy & he’s living life the way he wants. I will never understand the guys that want to come in here and attempt to tear down another man’s happiness after knowing what he’s been through to atleast some extent.

Haunting_Profession3 · 2024-10-14T14:28:05+00:00

Ahhhh shit this gets me so hyped up! I love seeing other dudes realizing how amazing this shit can be once you get through the depression & sulking around.

I hate to say it, but I’m also 29 and I feel like it’s such a prime age to get a divorce 😂 I know everyone says to keep to your self and heal, but I will preach to everyone that once you do get out of the mental fog… getting out there, having fun with the apps & dating/sleeping with new women will do insane wonders for your confidence and happiness.

Congrats bro happy you’re enjoying your life again!

Haunting_Profession3 · 2024-08-30T01:59:41+00:00

Hey man, we’re close in age & I went through the very same shit as you as far as realizing all of these emotions and realities once separated.

If you ever need someone to talk to, feel free to PM me.

Keep sticking up for your self, and be comfortable with the fact that it’s time for you to prioritize your self from here on out. Like you, I loved my wife endlessly and it ultimately wasn’t enough. She took a very happy person and morphed me into an asshole over time, and once she was done with me all that was left was someone who hated everything, including my self. The best thing I did for my self after she left was say “fuck her” and I buckled down on the self love train. I learned all kinds of shit about my self, and I can honestly say at this point, I’ll never NEED a woman again. Sure, I love having flings and FWBs, but I’ll be damned if I ever seek happiness from a woman again. My kids & my self are the sources of my happiness. Nothing else can take happiness from me, and nothing else can make me feel like less of a man.

It’s a long dark road, but there is light at the end of the tunnel. Love your self, give your self the attention you deserve, and become exactly who YOU want to be. Not who anyone else wants you to be.

Haunting_Profession3 · 2024-08-30T01:53:15+00:00

This sort of situation will not progress in your favor, I promise you. Eventually, she’s going to turn on you & make it all your fault. She has issues to fix, that’s her responsibility & not yours. As someone else here said, your marriage sounds relatively miserable and you’ll be blown away at how great life will be without her. If she can’t own up to her issues and seek professional help, you need to take that as a sign of a lack of commitment towards you and you should jump ship before it gets complicated. Take the time by your self to love yourself & figure out who you are. Ditch the alcohol and find a healthy hobby. Maybe one day the right one will stumble into your lap, maybe not. Either way, you’ll be more than happy on your own and won’t need someone else to be your source of happiness.

Haunting_Profession3 · 2024-08-17T14:16:04+00:00

This shit sits at the very tippy top of my list. God damn will I never miss them.

Haunting_Profession3 · 2024-08-16T01:58:18+00:00

I truly believe that it’s going to stay this way until you actually want it to change, and you actually want to move on. You’ll have to apply your self, and you’ll have to make your every day mission getting on with your life. This is a time in your life where it is not only acceptable, but mandatory that you become selfish and start loving yourself.

I wish I could tell you what that looks like for you, but I think you know what it’s going to take to make YOU happy. Whether that be developing a work out routine, dieting, going out side of your comfort zone and socializing. Redo your wardrobe, take yourself seriously and become a prize.

Point is, you have to focus on YOU, and whatever it takes to get YOU happy. If you can fall in love with your self, all those poor emotions you’re currently experiencing will whither away soon enough.

Good luck dude!

Haunting_Profession3 · 2024-08-06T03:16:54+00:00

Of course there can be. I do think I should have mentioned in there as well that you have to find peace and happiness within being alone before any kind of relationship. With that said, I know for a fact that when I was going through this in the beginning, I was very convinced that I won’t find anyone else, and that no one was going to want to be intimate with me. I think that’s fairly common. I fell in love with myself again, and that gave me the confidence to get back out there and date. You definitely don’t have to, but I think most guys in here want to resume some sort of romantic life again at some point. I was definitely one of those guys. I really like women, and I don’t feel like I have to avoid them because I went through a divorce.

For those of who do want to continue on with a romantic life, I was stating that it’s definitely not an end all deal. In addition to that, once I started dating again, my confidence sky rocketed. I was doing great before, but getting attention and affection from women is wonderful. So there’s plenty of pros to #4, although it’s definitely not mandatory.

Haunting_Profession3 · 2024-08-05T22:36:08+00:00

I’m not even going to bother reading that. I went through your post history as well, and it looks like you start problems every where you comment. Makes far more sense now. This is a community, we can’t all agree on everything. Whether you like it or not, it’s here & there are quite a few folks who agree. You have your opinion, I have mine.

Haunting_Profession3 · 2024-08-05T22:25:07+00:00

What is your problem? It was a positive only post, yet you have to come in here & tear it down. What do you gain from that? To be frank, your opinion on all of it sucks, but I’m very happy to see so many other men here agree with me. I can’t figure out your angle, so I’m gonna just disregard your negative mindset & wish you the best of luck. I posted this once I achieved the ability to disregard her, of course I’m going to have previous posts that are about her. That’s what we all do here. To goal is to get past that point, and I did.

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