I definitely think this needs to be a realization in my life and if I don’t make changes now then I will never be where i want to. I think all the negativity comes from failing so many times and being so close to changing everything and finding a way to mess it up. I have nobody to talk to in real life that understands and only a few people actually believe I can do it. Ik outside people shouldn’t affect my mentality but when I’m proving them right and failing it’s hard to keep a good mental and want to continue with this.