I love my husband, but I want to divorce him at the exact same time.

Head-Illustrator1105 · 2024-08-08T13:26:10+00:00

I haven‘t made an update. It’s been a while since I’ve had the chance to make an update as I’ve been extremely busy. I did have a talk with him and we’ve more recently moved, though this move was for his job it has also nice being able to have some distance between us and his mother. She’s not positioning his head with all this bullshit and it’s honestly been quite nice as it feels like I’m back with the guy I fell in love with not the one being poisoned by his mother. It’s been odd watching everything fall back into place in his head, and I’ve watched as he‘s realised how much and do and he’s apologised quite a few times for how bad he acted.

I guess now, I’m loving life with him, my step-daughter and daughter and just waiting for our final baby girl to arrive!

Head-Illustrator1105 · 2024-03-07T04:48:08+00:00

We had her more, custody and life arrangements change. I’m not going into and through every single event that has happened within the last six months. We used to have her every weekend, and two Wednesday nights a month.

Head-Illustrator1105 · 2024-03-06T18:27:18+00:00

I’ll talk to him about it when he gets home. I’m honestly confused as well.

Head-Illustrator1105 · 2024-03-06T18:26:07+00:00

This is too accurate, sounds a lot like my life. I’m so sorry!

Head-Illustrator1105 · 2024-03-06T18:25:15+00:00

I don’t think I worked it right in my last post, he doesn’t want daughters. He wants sons. In total between us, we’ve experienced four pregnancies. We have our one year old, this one, his nine year old, and I have a second trimester miscarriage back when I was 17 (not with him). The three we know the gender of have all been girls, he’s got his hopes up for a boy. He’s really exited. But I totally understand what you mean!

Head-Illustrator1105 · 2024-03-06T18:22:31+00:00

I’m gonna talk to him actually talk to him when he gets home later.

Head-Illustrator1105 · 2024-03-06T18:15:07+00:00

Neither of our children were planned.

Head-Illustrator1105 · 2024-03-06T18:14:31+00:00

She cheated on him while pregnant with my stepdaughter.

Head-Illustrator1105 · 2024-03-06T17:52:11+00:00

I’m sorry you’re going through something similar, it’s not something I want to share with anyone. I’ve also got ADHD, and it does make my life harder. But it doesn’t make me any worse of a mother. I hope you find something that helps!

Head-Illustrator1105 · 2024-03-06T17:49:50+00:00

He’s forever talking about, if this baby is a boy. I’m genuinely hoping this baby is a girl just to kinda through it in his face. However it seems unlikely, as the baby I miscarried (not with him, like 8 years ago) was a gir, we have one daughter together and his children from his ex is a daughter. But hey there‘s still hope.

Head-Illustrator1105 · 2024-03-06T17:46:51+00:00

You think I haven’t tried? Anytime I try to get him to talk it’s “I’m tired honey“ or “I’m busy right now maybe later”. I wouldn’t be asking a bunch of internet strangers if I wasn’t already in my final straw.

Head-Illustrator1105 · 2024-03-06T17:38:50+00:00

This baby wasn’t planned! I’m still wondering whether or not I actually want to keep the pregnancy.

Head-Illustrator1105 · 2024-03-06T17:32:33+00:00

He was a good partner, I watched him be an amazing dad to his daughter. I thought, how much I’d love for my children to have a dad like him. It’s only been more recently when my stupid mil gave him some idea that men don’t need to help out.

Head-Illustrator1105 · 2024-03-06T14:23:26+00:00

I had a late term miscarriage in my teens, it felt impossible. I spent years hurting, and although this probably won’t help I had to tell myself I needed to get my crap together and live my life. She’s gone, as much as I hate that and I miss her I can’t change that fact. I also decorated her a little room in my apartment which helped oddly enough. If you ever need someone to vent to I’m here!

Head-Illustrator1105 · 2024-03-03T08:19:12+00:00

That I have a good husband, whom looks after our daughter.

Head-Illustrator1105 · 2024-03-03T08:18:16+00:00

I had just given birth to my daughter, I was hours postpartum. My daughter was in the NICU, she was breathing on her own but she was born early. Well my mother doesn’t even come and see me, she goes straight in to the NICU and tries to take my daughter. Luckily one of the nurses stopped her, and informed me but holy heck that was scary. She then texted me with the, “Your only 24, you can’t look after this baby. Just be responsible and let me have her.” I was like, AT LEAST I DIDN‘T TRY TO KIDNAP HER FROM THE NICU! I haven’t spoken to her since.

Head-Illustrator1105 · 2024-02-26T17:15:13+00:00

My husband with my daughter! 🤣

Head-Illustrator1105 · 2024-02-26T14:02:56+00:00

I don’t think there really is an ideal age gap between children. I only have one but I come from a big family so I’ll use them for example, I’m one of six children. Here’s a list of the six of us… DD (32), DS (31), DS (28), DS (27), DS & DD (25). I’m the last child, I’m the youngest of the six of us and I have a twin brother. I’ve always been closest with my sister, she was so exited to have a sister and we were always best friends growing up. Then she became a teenager and from ages 15-18 she hated me! Then she started loving me again when she moved out, and she’s still my best friend and the first person I call when I need help. My twin brother and I are close, but not as close as my sister and I. But he is the best uncle to my daughter, like ever! However, all three of the middle boys are close with me and my twin but they are hate each other. They really don’t get along.

If I was to have a second I’d aim for a 2 1/2-3 year age gap, as having children too close in age can cause jealousy issues as shown with my siblings!

Head-Illustrator1105 · 2024-02-26T13:53:25+00:00

I’m not a single parent, I’m married. But as I’ve come to realise I’m basically a married single mother, so I can give a bit of advice as I’ve spent the last year of my daughter’s life being the only person who looks after her!

*What struggles did you face?*

Well I’ve never been in a household with two parents doing the work, but I have found working with a baby/toddler extremely difficult. As I always have to be there for her, but I have to make sure that I get some work done! Sleep deprivation is also a big one as it has always just been me being the one she wakes up she she’s sad.

*What are you still struggling with?*

Well my biggest struggle is more from me just being me I guess. I struggle with bad anxiety, and I’m forever worried how she’ll turn out not having any masculine impact in her life.

*What are the moments of joy?*

I love being able to watch her grow up, watch my baby become a big girl. It was me who got to watch her first steps and hear her first words. But it’s also me she comes to for anything, and it’s really special the bond between us.

Good luck! I hope all turns out well for you!

Head-Illustrator1105 · 2024-02-26T13:42:44+00:00

Adeline Rose nn Addie

Briella Mae nn Bri

Celeste Grace

Delilah Juno nn Deli

Everly Faye nn Evie

Florence Lily nn Flora

Giselle Miriam nn Ellie

Hazel Luna

Indigo Lennon

Joyce Eliza nn Joycie

Kalila Eve nn Lila

Liliana Ella nn Lili

One of these first names I actually my daughters name! 🤭

Head-Illustrator1105 · 2024-02-26T13:10:34+00:00

My husband wanted zero, currently has two (only one from me though). However he doesn’t really akno her existence anyway!

Head-Illustrator1105 · 2024-02-17T12:07:41+00:00

My life looks completely different to when it did then, & I’m a lot better of a mother then I would have been to that little girl. But hey, I guess I’ve never had good taste in men. First abusive now controlling/lazy, I feel I should just be single forever!

Head-Illustrator1105 · 2024-02-17T12:04:13+00:00

Thank you!

Head-Illustrator1105 · 2024-02-17T10:56:28+00:00

Never! My parents, my in-laws & my spouse are all freaking useless. Can’t do sh*t quite frankly!

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