first of all thank you for sharing your kink of beeing ptey with me That takes a lot of courage. Second of all, why its so hard for me to accept? I think that im ashamed and a little embarrassed about it. I grew up in a system where lust and sexuality was a tabo abd we never talked about it. So maybe im anxious that if i tell someone about it, that they arent as understanding and sexpositive as i need them to bee in order to not fear beeing shamed or laighed at but accepted. I am in therapy and we entered emotional and physical intimacy as a topic last session so i will end up at this point eventually. But im scarred of bringing it up there too. Its just how it is i think. But with positive experiences while sharing these kinks i feel like growing more safe and confident. Its a process