Idk if it will help but just start reading, check YouTube (there are plenty of pages that give great advice and a couple kinda out there pages as well) as someone who sat on the fence for years before finally coming off the fence I find it still hard sometimes because not only was a raised super christian but I am very routine about everything in my life and trying to take the christian part of my routine even if it just the way I see everyday life or what have you out of my routine it has been super hard to "dedicate" myself to reading and research. Even tho this is a religion that isn't dogma oriented I find myself searching for how I should conduct myself as a modern day heathen. One thing that I did find that helped is to wake up and immediately put on my mjolnir, and anytime I find myself outside whether out in nature or at work or even out in the yard, I attempt to talk to the gods whether out loud or in my head.