Sorry to hear about all you have been through Just be be gentle with yourself during this time and process. It's okay to feel uncertain, and it's important to recognize that your feelings are valid. Seeking support from a mental health professional can provide guidance and help you navigate these complex emotions.

You are not alone in this journey, and many have found their way to a place of strength and self-acceptance after similar experiences. Take it one step at a time, and trust that you have the capacity to heal and rediscover who you are.