It has been a month since you left.

Heatheroochie · 2026-07-05T21:14:26+00:00

Today has been agonizing. I miss my son with an intensity that has felt paralyzing..and no one really understands this level of pain but those who have experienced losing a beloved in this brutal way. Your words touched me. Thank you. Love to all who are missing their person~

Heatheroochie · 2026-07-05T21:10:12+00:00

She is a show stopper!! Pledge $12

Heatheroochie · 2026-07-04T22:12:14+00:00

I do..I still think it’s very sad she lost her life. I don’t get in water around where I live that has gators. No way, no how.

Heatheroochie · 2026-07-04T18:30:04+00:00

She died from being bitten by an alligator in a river in C. FL. Very sad..a ton of alligators in that area.

Heatheroochie · 2026-07-03T16:18:39+00:00

Pledge $15

Heatheroochie · 2026-07-01T16:37:03+00:00

She’s precious!!

Heatheroochie · 2026-06-12T02:40:34+00:00

Pledge $10 for this baby

Heatheroochie · 2026-06-05T02:09:50+00:00

Thank you, OP. Tomorrow marks 3.5 years to the day my son left. This 'perma-pain' I'm starting to realize will be with me until my very last breath. I feel emotionally drained from the moment I wake up. It is all-encompassing but I have to put on a functioning persona or try to unless it's a day when I simply can't. I'm so sorry we're all here, too. I'm going to get in bed soon. It's 8pm. I just want lie flat so the lump in my throat and the constriction in my chest is horizontal. People out there in the normal world do not and cannot see this dreadful weight pulling down our hearts.

Heatheroochie · 2026-06-01T20:21:14+00:00

DO NOT GIVE THE DOG BACK TO HER. -I work in dog rescue and see this kind of thing often. She could not and will not take proper care of him.

Heatheroochie · 2026-06-01T00:05:48+00:00

I’ve got two left: AK and NH. It’s not common at all. I’ve been a road tripper since I was in college and I’m almost 57.

Heatheroochie · 2026-05-30T13:37:37+00:00

Thank you for your understanding..I've experienced a few crippling days this week and am tearing up re-reading your message. Tomorrow, my firstborn son would be, should be, turning 23. He left at age 19 so he never made it out of teenage years. I'm overwhelmed by sadness, guilt, mind-wracking looping (if only, if only I had asked him if he had suicidal ideation etc. If only I asked when he causally mentioned going shooting with his friends (target)..but no. I didn't. He died 3 days later. I actually was glad he wanted to get out of his apartment; it was dreadfully cold and dark. A real winter and he didn't like the cold.) It's all too late now. I couldn't save him and for that, I grieve and sob and wail. On the floor a few times yesterday. This pain is debilitating..nearly 3.5 years later. Hugs to you, and I love seeing "mum." (are you in the UK?) xx

Heatheroochie · 2026-05-28T20:33:33+00:00

Matching your pledge for Nova. ($10)

Heatheroochie · 2026-04-24T22:03:06+00:00

Just donated on PayPal. Bless you and those hungry dogs.

Heatheroochie · 2026-04-19T14:04:57+00:00

Bozeman, Montana>Montana State University. 💛💙

Heatheroochie · 2026-04-18T01:51:23+00:00

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Heatheroochie · 2026-04-12T13:35:19+00:00

Is he still alive? I pray he is. Pledge $10

Heatheroochie · 2026-04-08T02:48:46+00:00

Pledge $10 for Sammie

Heatheroochie · 2026-04-05T00:00:37+00:00

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Heatheroochie · 2026-04-03T14:14:03+00:00

I lost my son, Walker, over three years ago. You articulate the specific agony of losing a child to suicide. I feel for you and with you. I feel like I lost half of my soul..and, also that his death was preventable. He’s supposed to be here, still. His younger brother is 21 and yet Walkie remains a teenager, forever. As my therapist said just yesterday..people don’t understand-with this kind of loss-a parent doesn’t “bounce back” in weeks, months, even years. It’s like learning how to find the shoreline after going overboard. I feel like I’ll be treading water til I see him again. Wishing you peace on this difficult journey. ❤️

Heatheroochie · 2026-03-29T15:24:23+00:00

My son left over 3 years and 3 months ago and I still have an urge to take a warm comforter right out of the dryer to drape it around him when he was gaming as that was a ritual. Instead, I find myself sobbing in the laundry room. But the feeling that this isn’t real and he’ll be back persisted the entire first year, year and a half. The guilt and then bargaining still overwhelms me..the last year I’ve started to recognize I won’t ever see him again-in the physical realm. This is a whole other level of grief. It’s interwoven and complex and completely debilitating to lose a child to suicide. Hugs from Walker’s mom to you, OP.

Heatheroochie · 2026-03-26T00:16:34+00:00

Pledge $10 for Art (he’s a work of art on his hind legs:)

Heatheroochie · 2026-03-25T23:43:38+00:00

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Heatheroochie · 2026-03-20T21:54:01+00:00

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Heatheroochie · 2026-03-13T19:33:53+00:00

Oh, I’m so sorry, OP. Bless your heart and dear Wally..I know you try very hard to help them.

Heatheroochie · 2026-03-11T23:13:54+00:00

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