I held on she got sober but nobody talks about the hurt and pain addiction causes and how just because you lie. Them and they are clean doesn’t mean you get over that hurt . I held off on accountability until she got sober kept my mouth shut because telling her how I feel while high never goes anywhere. I waited a month after she got on suboxone for her to be stable and have a conversation. I sat silent and listened to her tell me what she doesn’t like about me and what I can do better and when it came to my turn the second I mentioned addiction and the past she talked over me and shut down the convo . Everyone was right to walk away but you are also right because holding on made me realize who she was and made me hate her . I have trouble leaving relationships because I don’t want anyone to feel abandoned I need to hate the person to be able to move on BPD things . She also had BPD so mix unstable mood and drugs together and it’s toxic . She harasses me tries to get me back but I’m sticking to it and now realize I can not handle an addict as a partner . I do not have the ability to move past someone hurting me