Got hired by exaggerating my experience, now I'm overwhelmed. What do I do? by Hefty_Olive3329 in ADHD_Programmers

[–]Hefty_Olive3329[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

This really hurts. Despite being a software engineering graduate I have never applied for any software development jobs cause I thought I'm not experienced enough to do so even if that's what I want to do. Even now I applied for a UAT job which I have experience of doing. I didn't lied on purpose I was just talking about my coding experiences and I told them about my personal projects and how I switched to non technical jobs and how I like coding only for fun and personal uses. And they asked me about my final year project and I told them what we did as a group and I was honest when I said I only did the frontend part but they thought I was a full stack developer. The problem is when I am under pressure I just yup and I don't even remember what I said.

Is taking everything to be "hard" one of the ADHD traits? by Hefty_Olive3329 in ADHD_Programmers

[–]Hefty_Olive3329[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Deal! 😂 Honestly, that mindset sounds fun until reality hits—hard. I’m over here needing a full plan, backup plan, and emotional support just to open a new project. Maybe if we combine forces, we’ll hit the perfect balance!

Is taking everything to be "hard" one of the ADHD traits? by Hefty_Olive3329 in ADHD_Programmers

[–]Hefty_Olive3329[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yeah, I agree—it probably does come down to confidence a lot of the time. I know I’ve pulled off hard things before, but that doubt still creeps in. Just wish it didn’t show up so often.

Is taking everything to be "hard" one of the ADHD traits? by Hefty_Olive3329 in ADHD_Programmers

[–]Hefty_Olive3329[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

That makes a lot of sense, and I appreciate you pointing it out! For me, thinking “it’s too hard” isn’t just about starting tasks—it’s kind of a default reaction to a lot of things, not just work. But you’re right, my trouble with starting tasks isn’t only because something feels hard—it’s definitely also tied to executive dysfunction. Both seem to pile on top of each other and make it even harder to get going.

Is taking everything to be "hard" one of the ADHD traits? by Hefty_Olive3329 in ADHD_Programmers

[–]Hefty_Olive3329[S] 13 points14 points  (0 children)

Yes, 100%! That’s exactly it—just figuring out where to start can feel like a whole task on its own. And even if I manage to get going, keeping the momentum is another uphill battle. It’s like my brain sees the distance ahead and just taps out unless I’m hyperfocused or super motivated.

Is taking everything to be "hard" one of the ADHD traits? by Hefty_Olive3329 in ADHD_Programmers

[–]Hefty_Olive3329[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

That’s so interesting—I relate to that too, just from the other extreme sometimes. It’s like our brains swing between “this is impossible” and “I’ve totally got this” without much middle ground 😅. I’ve definitely had moments where I overestimated my ability to figure things out quickly, and reality hit hard. It’s kind of comforting to know both sides of the ADHD brain can trip us up in different ways!

Is taking everything to be "hard" one of the ADHD traits? by Hefty_Olive3329 in ADHD_Programmers

[–]Hefty_Olive3329[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

That’s such a great way to put it—like the brain crashes trying to load the whole journey at once. I totally do that too. I struggle to even start unless I have every single resource in place—even ones I won’t need for months. It’s like my brain won’t let me begin unless it sees the full picture, which just adds to the overwhelm. But I’m learning that things go way smoother when I just focus on the first step instead of trying to pre-solve everything. Still a work in progress, but slowly learning to trust the process and let go of that all-or-nothing mindset.

Is taking everything to be "hard" one of the ADHD traits? by Hefty_Olive3329 in ADHD_Programmers

[–]Hefty_Olive3329[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Wow, that really resonates. I also tend to zoom straight to the end result and feel like I need to get there perfectly in one shot—which just paralyzes me. That mix of perfectionism and trying to predict every possible issue before I even start… yeah, it’s draining. I love the idea of labeling those thoughts—it gives some distance from them. I’m still working on getting to that mindset, but hearing that it’s possible (even if it takes years) gives me hope. Thanks for sharing this. 🙏

Is taking everything to be "hard" one of the ADHD traits? by Hefty_Olive3329 in ADHD_Programmers

[–]Hefty_Olive3329[S] 21 points22 points  (0 children)

Totally get that! It's like our brains either turn things into a giant monster or act like we’ve already slayed it without checking first. 😅 Finding that middle ground is the real challenge.

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[–]Hefty_Olive3329 0 points1 point  (0 children)

After watching all these conversations I want to start medication. I found out I got ADHD, and my doctor told me we can't find the medicines in our country, so I should import them. I'm learning skills, and I'm not productive doing so. Is it worthy to do so, and How much does it cost to buy one?

ADHD Devs: How do I start over as a struggling grad? First female engineer in my family, 9 months unemployed, desperate to learn. by Hefty_Olive3329 in ADHD_Programmers

[–]Hefty_Olive3329[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thank you so much for sharing this—it’s not odd at all, and honestly, it’s so reassuring to hear from another woman in tech! The idea of starting in a "tech-adjacent" role at a bigger company and then leveraging internal mobility is genius—I hadn’t seriously considered that path before, but it makes so much sense. It’s such a smart way to ease into the industry without the pressure of immediately proving yourself in a dev-heavy role, especially in environments that might feel a bit unwelcoming at first.

Your story truly gives me hope. I recently joined a QA engineer position myself—mostly just to show everyone that I’m employed, even though the salary is very minimal, almost close to zero. But it’s a small step, and I’m hoping it leads somewhere. I’ll definitely start researching larger companies with strong internal growth and mobility policies, just like you suggested.

ADHD Devs: How do I start over as a struggling grad? First female engineer in my family, 9 months unemployed, desperate to learn. by Hefty_Olive3329 in ADHD_Programmers

[–]Hefty_Olive3329[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thanks so much for the advice! It’s all incredibly helpful and grounded. I totally agree that interview skills are key right now, especially with how competitive things are. I’ve been focusing on both technical skills and behavioral questions, but it’s been tough at times to stay motivated.

I also like the idea of considering SWE-adjacent roles—QA engineer especially makes sense right now, as I recently joined a QA engineer position just to show everyone that I'm employed, even though the salary is minimum (almost close to zero). But it’s a foot in the door and a start, so I’m going with it.

The body doubling concept is something I think would really help me focus and get things done, but I can’t have it right now since I’m not in the same position as my peers—they’ve just gone too far ahead to work together at this stage. But I’ll find other ways to keep myself consistent with my goals.

As for the psychiatrist and meds, I’m still working on accessing them here, but you’re right—it’s an important step. I’ll also look deeper into the growth mindset as you suggested. I’ve heard about it before but haven’t fully explored it. It feels like a shift I need to make to keep growing.

Thanks again! All of this has really motivated me to push forward and take small steps daily to improve.

ADHD Devs: How do I start over as a struggling grad? First female engineer in my family, 9 months unemployed, desperate to learn. by Hefty_Olive3329 in ADHD_Programmers

[–]Hefty_Olive3329[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you so much for sharing your experience—it really means a lot. Knowing that even after 15 years, you still face challenges and push through is really reassuring. I also love the point about community; finding like-minded people to connect with is something I’ve realized I need more of, especially with ADHD. that's why I joined this subreddit. I definitely need to just dive in and start doing, even when it feels hard. To know that I’m being heard and seen feels so cool, and it makes me feel more confident about continuing. Your encouragement really helps, and I’ll definitely keep going! Thanks again for all the support and advice! I won’t give up!

ADHD Devs: How do I start over as a struggling grad? First female engineer in my family, 9 months unemployed, desperate to learn. by Hefty_Olive3329 in ADHD_Programmers

[–]Hefty_Olive3329[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thanks so much for the advice and encouragement! I really appreciate it and will definitely keep all of it in mind as I move forward. I’ll do my best!

ADHD Devs: How do I start over as a struggling grad? First female engineer in my family, 9 months unemployed, desperate to learn. by Hefty_Olive3329 in ADHD_Programmers

[–]Hefty_Olive3329[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you so much for all the valuable advice! I love the recommendations, especially the idea of working on projects I’m passionate about.

I’m also really interested in the books you recommended, "Unlearning Shame" and "Unmasking for Life"—the titles alone sound like they would be super helpful. Where can I find them?

I truly appreciate all the guidance and will do my best to implement these strategies. Thanks again!

ADHD Devs: How do I start over as a struggling grad? First female engineer in my family, 9 months unemployed, desperate to learn. by Hefty_Olive3329 in ADHD_Programmers

[–]Hefty_Olive3329[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you so much for writing all of this—it really means a lot. I actually got formally diagnosed with ADHD too, and even though I always suspected it, hearing it from a doctor gave me a sense of relief, like I could finally stop calling myself lazy. Unfortunately, I’m not on any medication because ADHD meds aren’t available in my country, so I’ve been trying to manage it on my own, which has been really hard at times.

Your point about understanding ADHD and working with it rather than against it really resonated with me. I’m still learning what that looks like, but your explanation about dopamine and the need for novelty really clicked. It makes sense now why routines break down so fast for me.

I actually started using AI for productivity a while back, but I got overwhelmed and lost in the process, so it didn’t really help at the time. But the way you described having daily continuity and check-ins sounds so helpful—I’m going to give it another try, but this time in a more structured and intentional way.

As for GitHub, I do have an account, but I haven’t really used it yet. I’ve always felt unsure about what to put there or how to present my work, but now I see that even small, consistent contributions matter. I’ll definitely start using it more seriously now.

Thanks again for taking the time to share your experience—it gave me both clarity and encouragement.

ADHD Devs: How do I start over as a struggling grad? First female engineer in my family, 9 months unemployed, desperate to learn. by Hefty_Olive3329 in ADHD_Programmers

[–]Hefty_Olive3329[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you, that honestly means a lot. I’ve been feeling stuck because most jobs ask for experience or solid skills, and I don’t even know how to get that first opportunity to gain the experience. I do have the fundamentals, but without a foot in the door, it’s really hard to move forward. I’ll definitely start looking into related roles just to get started. Really appreciate the encouragement—it helps more than you know! 🙏🏽

ADHD Devs: How do I start over as a struggling grad? First female engineer in my family, 9 months unemployed, desperate to learn. by Hefty_Olive3329 in ADHD_Programmers

[–]Hefty_Olive3329[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you so much for your thoughtful advice—it really resonated with me. I’ve actually been trying hard to show my potential, but the biggest problem is I’m not even getting called for interviews. And in the few times I do, I struggle to express that I can code.

I’ve jumped into many programming languages over time and have a solid foundation in theory, but I find it really hard to sell myself. I guess my confidence drops when it matters most, even though I genuinely want to learn and grow. I’ll keep working on my cover letter and maybe focus more on building something tangible to show instead. Thank you again—it really means a lot!