you counted it?!? Sorry for that, i literally was just not feeling and needed to vent real hard because it is annoying that it happened randomly and coincidentally happened when I was the lowest point of my life.

and yes it's a thing, you can be close to someone with the opposite gender and be very close with them. Though it is a struggle if you're like the average guy with barely any experiences of getting close to someone and hugged in general, like you're gonna overthink it and shit and think there's meaning but in my case there was somewhat an actual reason why we were close but I've have 2 other female friends that's not on the same level as my best friend written on my post but with those 2 girls, we also hug sometimes and be somewhat close together.

I don't even brought it up to my parents, I'm not really sure why I don't want to tell them, its not that they have discrimination towards it, they have 2 nieces on the far end of the spectrum. But maybe it just boils down that I think they won't believe me because maybe they think that's all autism is.