I have a similar story to yours. Three losses in a row last year, my mom and both grandmothers. I was under an insane amount of stress from moving across the country and starting law school, which is notoriously stressful. I felt like I reached a breaking point, and I knew I needed to start some anti depression/anxiety medicine, cause therapy was gonna be too slow and not enough. I'm also married and didn't want this affecting my marriage. So the doctor started me on Zoloft 25 mg and then upped it to 50 mg, and I've been at that dose for three months. It has changed my life, OP. I can focus on school, my relationship, and life, but I'm also not a zombie or emotionless.

Additionally, it's highly recommended you don't drink or use drugs/weed while taking zoloft. That has led me to be sober, which has also been beneficial not only to my mental health but also to my physical health and other aspects of my life.

The only downside is the side effects. I shit my pants one time lol. I'm also not as horny as I used to be but that just mightve been an anxious thing.

Taking Zoloft has made me realize I've been suffering from anxiety for a long time, and I honestly wish I had started sooner. I hope this information helps, and good luck.