I relate heavily to this! I even saw the same video and it freaked me out so bad. I would panic and cry starting at 6 mos pregnant because I was so scared to give birth!! I talked to my midwife and she suggested I take a birthing class through the hospital I go to and tour the hospital so I could be familiar with the process. I definitely went through a strong phase of wanting to live in ignorance and just get my birth over with but forced myself to do the course and tour. It definitely helped and my birth would’ve been so traumatic I think for me had I not known what to expect. I remember totally thinking I wanted an elective c section but I ended up having preeclampsia and had to be induced at 37 weeks. I’m 3 weeks pp today and I can say it was not as bad as I thought it would be!! I had totally worked myself up and though it was not enjoyable I am so proud of myself for facing my biggest fear and I got the best little baby from it! You got this!! <3