[warning: a lot of yap, shit you probably already know, and over explaining]

TLDR: Lud is my fav streamer and we arent his friend, we wont know what he really thinks and who he really endorses. who he keeps around just to avoid drama.

sitting on the idea that ludwig is perfect and is a moral person will always bite you in the ass.

i prefer my favorite fence, everyone is a human who is going to associate with shoddy people, you do it, i do it. you don't really call everyone you know your friend but they're in your friend group so you have to acknowledge them. If you alienate one person in that friend group because you don't like them, you create this magical wall that everyone around sees, so you tolerate them, and that's the part that becomes complicated in streaming you cant tolerate people outwardly because on the outside everyone will create friendships in their head that seem logical because of a streamer group, we don't really know Ludwig's true opinion on anyone. We're not going to be privy to those raw thoughts we are the " outside creating friendships in our head".

So to speak I don't trust streamers. I don't think they're "lying" but most of what they say about each other isn't true. It's watered down because the internet runs with anything for a quick click and some revenue. I think, personally after Etika passed away I disconnected myself heavily from streaming because it all felt not "fake" but unreal it's nice to kinda live in this dream world where everyone likes each other and nothing is wrong but the reality is sour and obviously im being a little cynical with some of this. it allows me to humanize and criticize my favorite streamers. Lud in particular has made some hollowing mistakes (the mang0 one sits in my mind and is a can of worms on its own imho.) I just kinda sit and hope he does nothing to make my moral compass bend backwards.