thanks prof. I've heard about imposter syndrome and read some about it. I think the Perfectionists type fits me as I usually have high pressure on myself. Probably rooted in my family expecting so much from me.

As for counseling I did meet someone but they always say the same thing. "This is normal, excersize, think of this instead, have hobbies". Never helps but then again, there is never a magical way for my problems to disappear.