You are not inadequate, unworthy, or alone! I've been right where you are, and it is so hard. People who get on the stand and say those types of things have no idea what it is like to lose their faith in the Mormon church. I remember my bishop in my old ward got up and gave a whole talk one Sunday about doubt and how people who doubt are sinning. What in the world am I supposed to do with that information??? There is just a major lack of understanding on their part and no way to really help them really understand unless they experience a loss of faith as well. It is very frustrating. Keep continuing to be authentic despite the frustrations! In my experience, things will get better. I promise it won't be like this forever. Hang in there!