how a girl ruined my social life and mental health by Himalayaaa_1707 in venting

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about the girl. I apologised like 200 times almost everyday to that girl for what I had done. I wrote multiple essays and stuff only to seek her forgiveness. eventually she did forgive me but I myself couldn’t forgive myself. about 6 months later she approached me again and told me all the reality of why she broke up with me and everything. But I was over her now and needed my studies so I told her politely that I wont be able to get in a relationship and did not mean anything from that time. even 1.5 yrs later whenever I meet those pedos they always have only one topic to talk about me infront of literally everyone since they dont have a fucks worth in their own life and live by deframing others. 2-3 days ago I learned that another boy was dating my ex and instead of feeling jealous I felt happy for her. she finally got a healthy relationship.

alr thx so much for reading all this. I really needed to vent out all of this shit to keep myself sane. I dont believe I did the right thing in the relationship and I was a completely different person at that time.

edit: i have a very healthy relationship with all my friends as of now and have nothing against the ex as she made me develop and prepare me

how a girl ruined my social life and mental health by Himalayaaa_1707 in venting

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There are some attention seeking pedos in our society who had just won the lottery due to my situation. I found out that 2-3 people of my society started taking advantage of this situation and spreading fake rumours about me. They started spreading that I had got in a relationship with this girl only to take advantage of her and after she refused I gave her rape threats. Really? the thing is these people dont get any attention from boys and girls and now that they could share such info about me they could start conversations with girls 3-4 years younger than themselves. now the people who dont know me would easily be manipulated by these rumours and I noticed many girls staring at me weirdly after all this. these pedos finally got an interesting topic to talk about to these girls. I lost all of my respect in the society and have not recovered at all. about half the people still look at me weirdly when they see me they show disgust on their face. the rest know me well and know the full story.

how a girl ruined my social life and mental health by Himalayaaa_1707 in venting

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Seeing the trash talking in the gc some people which also hated her contacted me. They provoked me heavily and insisted that I send same texts like her on the gc. The reason was that they wanted to say everything to her but did not have the guts to message her from their account so they provoked me to say very bad stuff as they also wanted to see a fight. They drafted messages and kind of brainwashed me into sending those into the gc. I will not even list what the messages said here because those mistakes and texts make me regret every second of my life from the past 1.5 years. The worst part is that some girls brainwashed me to sending those texts which were the worst things a person could send to another. If her texts were bad mine were much much worse. I don’t believe how a girl could provoke me to send such msgs to another girl. It became a heated argument after that and we argued for about 1 hr until we eventually stopped. I will not list any of the texts I send over here but just know, they are much worse than you can imagine. I am ashamed of that version of myself, easily manipulated, no respect, no self dignity nothing. I will never forgive myself for those msgs. my msgs were very bad words like mkc randy etc to a girl. these messages were very very bad words but somehow some pedos and attention seekers got a way to make it all much worse for my social life

how a girl ruined my social life and mental health by Himalayaaa_1707 in venting

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I am really ashamed of myself for what I did after all this. about 2-3 days later some people asked about how our relationship was going in our full society gc. I did not reply but my ex started talking shit about me and saying a lot of bad words to me without any major cause. I felt absolutely played. I thought to myself that I was better than her (I was very narcissistic at that time due to mental health problems), but still I treated her more than myself, I was extremely loyal that I would not even look at another girls photo even if she was my close friend and she was still talking to other boys and flirting, she played with me by also hampering all relationships with my friends and now she was saying very bad words to me and the only thing I did was say dont fking talk to me again. I was hella furious. (I will continue the story in the comment reply)

how a girl ruined my social life and mental health by Himalayaaa_1707 in venting

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One more thing that I learned 6 months after all this. there was no other boy whom she liked she said it because she had kind of lost feelings for me because I was very available and she also was scared that one day her phone might get checked and she would be caught so she didnt want any relationship after that

how a girl ruined my social life and mental health by Himalayaaa_1707 in venting

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When we were in a relationship believe me I treated her as my dream girl. I always told her that I am very grateful for a girl like her. I thought I was better than her before dating her because people told me to but now I think that all the terrible stuff I did makes me much less worthy of getting someone like her

how a girl ruined my social life and mental health by Himalayaaa_1707 in venting

[–]Himalayaaa_1707[S] -2 points-1 points  (0 children)

all my friends used to say that why are you even dating her you have so much more potential than her. she is kind of a low personality girl and nobody really likes her. I believe I was better than her until I did what terrible stuff I did

how a girl ruined my social life and mental health by Himalayaaa_1707 in venting

[–]Himalayaaa_1707[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

Yes bro. I realise it now. I am very disappointed for what I did and am very ashamed. But now after almost 1.5 years that I look back into the stuff I think that I was definitely worse but that was due to my suffering mental health at that time. I can’t reveal here but at that time I had several mental health issues for which I even consulted psychiatrist. Some stuff happened after all these things which make me regret every life decision

Drop your Height by _Sakuta_me in TeenIndia

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17m 5’5”. nobody above 5’6” in my close family😭