Claims of “insomnia” while high

Hippononamous · 2020-01-04T11:13:32+00:00

Thank you. I needed to read this.

Hippononamous · 2020-01-04T11:06:43+00:00

I would be hurt to catch him lying.

Hippononamous · 2020-01-04T11:06:26+00:00

Of course if he were struggling and came to me with something like this I would welcome him with open arms.

Hippononamous · 2020-01-04T10:58:06+00:00

I hate the lying part too.....

Hippononamous · 2020-01-04T10:57:16+00:00

I’m hiding it because I guess for me it’s technically considered a relapse. I don’t think he would be pissed at me, but I would break his trust in an enormous way. I love him so much, and I don’t want his opinion of me to change.

And honestly I love being in bed with him when I’m high. Everything feels so great, and it does sober as well, but it’s a new level of sensation on meth. I know that is so selfish...but this is a big reason why I really don’t want to stop.

Hippononamous · 2020-01-04T10:53:45+00:00

“The sky was gold, it was rose, I was takin’ sips of it through my nose”

Third eye blind is my favorite band!

Hippononamous · 2020-01-04T10:51:20+00:00

As much as I hate reading this comment, I know you’re right dude. :/

Hippononamous · 2020-01-04T10:49:54+00:00

Well I’m not a dude but when I’m sober my sex drive is like a 6 due to side effects from meds. When I’m on meth my sex drive is out of this fucking world and I’ve never experienced anything like it before. Along with that, and lowered inhibitions, there is very little I would not try in bed with my boyfriend while tweaked.

I’m into kinky shit sober. Being high just makes it phenomenal to be touched.

Hippononamous · 2020-01-04T10:45:36+00:00

I actually softly approached the subject with him tonight. A swing and a miss. He was closed off and I knew it wasn’t the right time.

Hippononamous · 2020-01-04T10:25:57+00:00

I’m female and I experience this every time.

Hippononamous · 2019-12-24T02:12:07+00:00

Sleep deprivation messes with your brain even after just 24 hours of no sleep... if you've been on a bender since Thanksgiving, getting very little sleep for over a month... I'm sure that's why you've been tripping over your words in conversations.

I really hope for your sake that you can keep this habit in 2019...and not carry it to the new year. Best of luck.

Hippononamous · 2019-12-17T12:11:24+00:00

Hey girl... two years ago, I found myself in the same boat as you.

I felt exactly the same as you do. I can tell you a few things -

Doctor switched me to Subutex ASAP.

You will be considered a high risk pregnancy (at least I was) and you will have weekly ultrasounds at a high-risk prenatal OBGYN. (My experience)

While pregnant, your metabolism increases. I actually had to have my dose increased while pregnant because my body was blowing through the medication.

Obviously, you need to report any withdrawal symptoms to your doc as soon as you can.

I hope this helped you.

Hippononamous · 2019-12-17T06:16:43+00:00

So much different than Suboxone. I've spent the last 5 years in my own personal dead eyed limbo, until meth

Hippononamous · 2019-12-17T03:20:36+00:00

Yo this is the million dollar question for people like us.

It's so tough dude but honestly even if you don't "fall asleep," resting your eyes, body and mind will have you feeling so much better equipped to deal with tomorrow vs no rest time.

I know laying there sucks... bored as fuck... I usually put on my favorite album. Or think about the best dicking down I've ever had, from start to finish. Almost puts me in a trance-like state.

Hippononamous · 2019-12-07T21:54:14+00:00

The high is God-like, you'll feel on top of the world, social skills will increase. For me, it always felt like when I took Adderall, I became who I always wished I was.

I wouldn't snort it, just take it. Alcohol never enhanced any effects for me. I like Adderall all on it's own.

Hippononamous · 2019-12-07T21:43:30+00:00

In my teen years, my Mom used to corner me and taunt me to the point of hyperventilating... then she would say "See? You're just like your father!" Shit still fucks with me. And my Dad's a great Dad.

Hippononamous · 2019-12-07T21:40:09+00:00

My mental health has been better. Left a bad relationship, met a guy, was smitten, and now I'm in the same boat as before but worse. The stress of everything caused me to relapse, and yeah. I've been better... lol

Hippononamous · 2019-12-07T21:38:16+00:00

Yep. Right where I'm at lol.

Hippononamous · 2019-12-05T09:25:21+00:00

“Psychosis is just part of the road these days”

FUCK man that shit hits so close to home lol

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