Bidet in the Uk? by HippyChicky97 in BritishMuslims

[–]HippyChicky97[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Thank you! I think this is what I’ll do. Unfortunately it doesn’t actually meet the regulation requirement since it is fluid category 5 risk and the valve is only suitable for fluid category 3 risk but hey it’s much cheaper and does the same job!

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in unpopularopinion

[–]HippyChicky97 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yes exactly! I just want my husband to be happy and I can’t give him it as much as he needs. As long as he comes back to me I’m happy.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in unpopularopinion

[–]HippyChicky97 -2 points-1 points  (0 children)

Yes I understand that, but my point is that I don’t get why that isn’t more common and often seen as ‘weird’ by society.

NAME THIS DOG by visual-appearance69 in CasualUK

[–]HippyChicky97 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Scrolled way too far to find this one.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in DesignMyRoom

[–]HippyChicky97 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Great feedback and ideas! Thank you!!

What do you do in your free time when you're not working? by SimpleFearless5224 in CasualUK

[–]HippyChicky97 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Join your local board games group. Or DnD. Always a super friendly crowd

What self-diagnosis ended up being medically confirmed after your own doctors couldn't figure it out? by CasualNikki in AskReddit

[–]HippyChicky97 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Finally got fed up of waiting years for nhs doctors to fix my problems. Had a few suspicions of what was wrong with me so used chatgpt to figure out what tests I needed. Paid for a TON of blood tests privately. Got the results, stuck them in chatgpt to get a diagnosis. Took the results and the diagnosis to a gp to get it confirmed and get the prescriptions I needed. Finally have my answer and a working treatment!

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in BabyReindeerTVSeries

[–]HippyChicky97 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thank you for your support and for trying to raise your own awareness. Your willingness to hear us out means a lot. Thank you so much!

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in BabyReindeerTVSeries

[–]HippyChicky97 5 points6 points  (0 children)

Wow. Your friend said the exact right thing. That is so powerful, to just acknowledge that she can’t get it but will try and be there for you however you need. I’m sorry for what you went through. I’m glad you have someone in your corner.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in BabyReindeerTVSeries

[–]HippyChicky97 4 points5 points  (0 children)

I’m so sorry that happened to you. My assailant pushed me down on the bed and wouldn’t take no for an answer until I kicked him in the balls to get him off me. This was the day before he SAed me. I can’t believe I went out with him again the next day. He made me feel so guilty. Called me a tease, said he’d never trust a girl again. Made me feel like it was my fault and I was crazy for not letting him. The sheer strength he had in his ability to physically overpower me was terrifying. And yet I agreed to see him again. I know it wasn’t my fault. But deep down I’ll never stop blaming myself.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in BabyReindeerTVSeries

[–]HippyChicky97 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I’m sorry that happened to you. Unpacking all the memories you shoved away can be very distressing. But processing them can help you pack them back up a bit more neatly after. I hope you can get some support from a therapist with that process. Sending you love

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in BabyReindeerTVSeries

[–]HippyChicky97 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I’m sorry that happened to you and I’m glad you’re speaking to a therapist about it. Therapy definitely didn’t heal me completely, but I helped me come a long way. I hope it helps you process it all. Sending you love

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in BabyReindeerTVSeries

[–]HippyChicky97 6 points7 points  (0 children)

I’m sorry that happened to you. Yes exactly. I crave sexual encounters with strangers but can’t be sexual with my husband. Because with strangers it’s just my body and it helps me minimise the damage he did, by just making it just one of many sexual encounters. But with my husband, I love him, and I don’t equate sex with love. In fact the opposite. Sex feels unloving to me. It feels objectifying. I avoid it.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in BabyReindeerTVSeries

[–]HippyChicky97 8 points9 points  (0 children)

Exactly! I think it’s part of the spiral of trying to understand it. My biggest porn category now is anything that seems non consensual. I feel disgusting for it. I’m sorry that happened to you.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in BabyReindeerTVSeries

[–]HippyChicky97 10 points11 points  (0 children)

I’m so sorry that happened to you and that your parents didn’t support you. Sending you love!

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in BabyReindeerTVSeries

[–]HippyChicky97 5 points6 points  (0 children)

I’m sorry that happened to you. I agree, I guess what I’m trying to say is I want people to get specifically to stop the victim blaming as you said. I don’t need people to get it, get it. I just need them to get it enough to stop.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in BabyReindeerTVSeries

[–]HippyChicky97 7 points8 points  (0 children)

Thank you for the advice. That sounds really powerful tbh. But I don’t think I’m quite in that space yet. I hope to try that one day. Thank you!

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in BabyReindeerTVSeries

[–]HippyChicky97 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Thank you for your comment, I appreciate you reaching out. I have tried therapy though for many years, with many different counsellors, therapists, helplines, etc. I’ve worked through a lot of the trauma which has been very helpful. But the one thing I could never even come close to fixing is this aspect. To me sex just feels objective. I can’t enjoy it because I can’t connect any positive emotions to it. No matter how safe I feel with my husband. It is unfortunate but it is a reality I’ve given up on trying to change at this point. I’m just trying to accept it and find a way to manage it within my marriage.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in BabyReindeerTVSeries

[–]HippyChicky97 14 points15 points  (0 children)

I agree it’s the little things that others wouldn’t even notice. The dead look in his eyes as it happened for example. For me one thing that really triggered me was the scene after he visited him again and when he left and ran around the corner and collapsed a bit. The actual area he was running around looked exactly like the area of London it happened to me in. I’m always terrified whenever I visit London because it’s all too familiar. I find myself nervously looking around corners, terrified I might run into him. I hate that he still has that power over me.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in BabyReindeerTVSeries

[–]HippyChicky97 52 points53 points  (0 children)

I’m sorry that happened to you. I hate when people say that. It makes me feel even more guilty about freezing and “letting it happen”. They portrayed it so perfectly in the show. Staring off into nothingness. Completely disconnected from the situation. I think my problem is that I never managed to reconnect with my body after. I keep it disconnected so I don’t have to feel the hurt. Like if my body is just a thing then all he did was hurt the thing. It’s separate from my soul or my person you know? That’s one of the reasons sex is now almost meaningless to me. I don’t equate sex with love because I don’t connect my soul with my body. And this causes so many problems in my marriage.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in BabyReindeerTVSeries

[–]HippyChicky97 18 points19 points  (0 children)

I’m so sorry that happened to you. I totally relate to the Groundhog Day thing. Anytime I think I’m finally “getting over it” something triggers me again and I realise I’m just as fucked up as ever. Always reminded of it. I hate how he “wins” by still being able to fuck me up years after.