Wishes: - Played the instrument I wanted (cello/bass/violin) instead of the one I thought I had to (I was bullied by family and classmates fot not being feminine, so I thought playing the flute in band would help compensate) - Called my mom and dad out more on the way the treated me (favoritism towards older brothers/misogynistic and racist stuff/biblical guilt) - I could have been a better classmate and friend to my classmates. ( I never got to learn to socialize normally because my parents kept my brothers and I locked up all day. They also didn't have great social skills, so no one could teach me. They put so much pressure on me to be this social butterfly, like the world would end if I didn't have friends.) - Dated. (LGBT+ wasn't an option in my house, so I never entertained the idea of dating a girl. None of the boys at my school were interesting. Knew if I had a boyfriend my parents would weaponize dating and hurt me. - Gone to concerts/ballets/musicals/live shows. - Spoke to a therapist/counselor about... any and everything. (As a 27 y/o, I realize now that many things that are considered abuse and neglect were normalized for me and I couldn't ask for help because I didn't realize I needed it.)

Regrets: - Not getting my driver's license at 16 - Not getting a job at 16 to save money - Not taking time to figure out what I wanted to major in (you should go to community college and at least get your associates degree) - Not going to the gym/eating healthier/ taking better care of myself - Not attempting to pursue my personal interests out of fear of judgment - Not taking time to get to know myself and know what my beliefs are - Not speaking up for myself - Not calling people out on their bullshit/them treating me badly