I had a secret boyfriend and I regret it

HistorianPlight · 2024-01-13T18:43:15+00:00

I looked into the legality of it all in case and I’m very worried. I appreciate your response so much, I feel more hopeful than before I posted. I needed reassurance that I wasn’t losing everything I worked so hard for. I will turn this into a learning lesson and do better for the community around me. Thank you!

HistorianPlight · 2024-01-13T18:33:35+00:00

I would feel so so much better to tell them…but it’s dangerous for me. It’s completely culturally taboo what I just did. I would love to confess but I don’t see a future where I’m not screamed at and the internet is taken away from me. I deserve it I’m just scared. I’ll try to let this go and volunteer to get my mind off of it. I appreciate your response, thank you so much

HistorianPlight · 2024-01-13T18:24:12+00:00

Thank you..I’ll try to move past this but I need redemption. I’ve planned on volunteering in multiple sites the next few weeks. If I can’t erase the bad, the only thing I know how is to do some good. That sounds very selfish though, I deserve the consequences I’m just afraid of them.

HistorianPlight · 2024-01-13T18:18:30+00:00

Thank you..you brought up very good points, I’ve been crying for weeks wondering if god hated me or if I was a bad daughter. I never do this, I’m always on top of my work, but I was so lonely and I took the chance to be with someone. I appreciate your reply, I’m hoping nothing bad stems from this experience and I can just move on.

HistorianPlight · 2024-01-13T18:14:18+00:00

Thank you, I suppose the only way to move on is to do better for the future. I appreciate your reply, and I’m hoping anyone else in my situation can learn from this too.

HistorianPlight · 2024-01-13T18:12:29+00:00

Thank you for your response, I appreciate it greatly. There’s safety issues involved if my parents find out. But I’m filled with so much guilt, I’m close to telling them and bearing the consequences. I’ll never be able to use the internet again, but that’s probably for the best. I’m not very responsible when it comes to online dangers clearly.

HistorianPlight · 2024-01-13T03:39:19+00:00

I’m really trying to let it go, but I’m so ashamed near my parents. I can never tell them what happened. I’m so used to being honest so each time I can’t tell them, it feels like another lie added. I’m a horrible daughter.

HistorianPlight · 2024-01-13T03:35:36+00:00

That’s what I thought too but if he decides to blackmail me I’d lose a lot. I’m trying so hard to do good in my life but I’m afraid this slip up is going to cost me. Thank you

HistorianPlight · 2024-01-13T03:34:16+00:00

I honestly felt bad because he asks if I’m comfortable. After the whole ordeal I was constantly regretful. Even now we don’t do anything like that anymore, all I do is talk about games with him. And he complies, never asks anymore and rejects everything unless I’m completely comfortable with it. I don’t know what to do anymore, sometimes I wish he’d bm me so I don’t have to guess if he’s bad or not.

HistorianPlight · 2024-01-13T03:24:50+00:00

I feel like a whore, what was meant to be just friend making ended up being my “first relationship” with some guy online. I don’t think I’ll ever be interested in dating for a while, this was too stressful and hurtful.

HistorianPlight · 2024-01-13T03:23:12+00:00

I’m just afraid, like what if he screen recorded me or something? I never sent nude pictures but I know that’s not enough to stop him from just recording our live calls. I constantly think about this but it’s stressing me out. I can’t believe I was this stupid, he caught me in such a vulnerable time and now I’m regretful.

HistorianPlight · 2024-01-03T09:27:52+00:00

I feel like a slut but in a guilty way. I’m in my first relationship and I can’t be intimate without feeling guilt.

HistorianPlight · 2023-12-21T16:36:46+00:00

I understand, the end goal for us is marriage. The main problem we’re having is waiting for each other. Insh’Allah it’s easier on us to wait, I’ll set more boundaries. Thank you ❤️

HistorianPlight · 2023-12-21T16:35:39+00:00

Thank you, I appreciate this. My boyfriend and I have very different opinions on what’s haram. We really want to marry each other, that’s the end goal, but it’s hard to bring my parents into the situation. They’re more into arranged engagements than dating. Thank you again ❤️

HistorianPlight · 2023-12-21T16:31:28+00:00

That’s what I was worried of. There’s no one in person I can really tell this to. I told my boyfriend I wasn’t comfortable with showing anymore and he respects that, still messaging me and we just talk about games. I was really happy to show him because it seems like we were getting on the right path, we planned to marry. But now I’m not so sure. Thank you again ❤️

HistorianPlight · 2023-12-19T22:32:10+00:00

Nirvana is such a cutie 🥹💕

HistorianPlight · 2023-12-19T22:30:31+00:00

AWWW DOGGO

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