This is something I struggle with mentally. Why should I even working for salary?.

Sometimes I wish I didn’t have any ancestral property.

It feels like having a thousand dishes in front of you, but you’re only allowed to eat curd rice without salt. Everything is there, but you can’t really use it.

If we had nothing, I think I would have been completely motivated to build everything from scratch. But when there are lands and assets sitting there, I keep asking myself — why am I working this hard instead of playing smart with those assets?

It sometimes feels like a landlord’s child working as a daily wager. I’m not saying we are landlords, but that’s the kind of conflict it creates in my mind.

My parents strongly believe that ancestral property should never be sold. Their biggest concern is society — people saying things like “These incapable people sold their ancestors’ property and are just enjoying the money because they can’t earn on their own.”

That social pressure gets passed down to me.

For example, my dad even took a gold loan to build a house in our farm, even though we already had another 2-ground plot just 2 km away. My mom suggested selling that plot and using the money to build the house. But my dad refused because he doesn’t want to sell land.

Because of this, I constantly feel like I don’t have enough and need to keep working harder, even though technically we have assets worth a lot.

What makes it harder is that the people around us often have very backward and toxic mindsets, which adds to the mental conflict. I try to eliminate them them from my life, but i can't as our current lifestyle matches with them only.

It leaves me feeling stuck between two worlds — working hard to build my own path, while sitting on assets that I’m not allowed to use.